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It's saturday and i am at work working, not my first choice of how to spend the weekend, but there was some things i needed done before the weekend and i didn't get a chance to do them yesterday. Stayed home friday night, watched TV, saw this show Amir from my work watches, its pretty good i have only seen it twice and both times it made me cry.
Looking forward to doing something fun tonight, nothing to outrageous, just have a few drinks, listen to some good music, hopefully with good people. I don't feel like looking for any guys to flirt with, i won't have my eyes open for pretty boys tonight,( which is usually when i find the best ones;)just gonna take it easy.
I have been thinking too much about an ex, i know i can't be happy when i am with him, yet i can't stop wanting to be around him, i miss the things we did together, the simple things like waking up with him, sitting next to him , just eating meals and brushing my teeth, watching TV, doing all this knowing he is just a couple of feet away, and calling out that i love him to here him say it back, reaching over and kissing him, even missing him while he was still there. All of this i want, and i know that i wasn't always happy with him, but compared to how i feel without him i am not sure if its worth it. I know better then anyone not to settle, but what if there is no perfect guy, what if i already met him and couldn't put up with his shit long enough...and vice versa.
Looking forward to doing something fun tonight, nothing to outrageous, just have a few drinks, listen to some good music, hopefully with good people. I don't feel like looking for any guys to flirt with, i won't have my eyes open for pretty boys tonight,( which is usually when i find the best ones;)just gonna take it easy.
I have been thinking too much about an ex, i know i can't be happy when i am with him, yet i can't stop wanting to be around him, i miss the things we did together, the simple things like waking up with him, sitting next to him , just eating meals and brushing my teeth, watching TV, doing all this knowing he is just a couple of feet away, and calling out that i love him to here him say it back, reaching over and kissing him, even missing him while he was still there. All of this i want, and i know that i wasn't always happy with him, but compared to how i feel without him i am not sure if its worth it. I know better then anyone not to settle, but what if there is no perfect guy, what if i already met him and couldn't put up with his shit long enough...and vice versa.