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I have been feeling kind of distant lately, not from anyone in particular, just everyone in general. I feel as if everyone shared a horrible secret about me and now they are all trying to avoid me, not necessarily avoid me just be indifferent toward's me, i am sure that its just me being paranoid, but either way its no fun. I have been in a grumpy mood lately, i wake up fine and nothing puts me that way, so i have come to the conclusion that everyone else treating me like i did something wrong is making me feel as though i have to be on the defense. Maybe it also has to do with the huge increase on the amount of work i have now, and not everyone cooperating with me, i am trying to make it easier to get everything done on time, but i need the help of a few people first, and i am tiered of asking them to do it, as much as they are tiered of me asking.
Still haven't met any nice boys, the fact that my spare time has been reduced to pretty much nothing, doesn't help with me needing some affection. I don't necessarily need a "boyfriend" just some affection every once in a while, and the only person i have been able to get any from, is now a person a am suppose to avoid. It wouldn't be so hard to not talk to him if i knew why i want to so bad, i feel like an addict every time i see him, it takes all my energy to keep myself from running to him and enjoy him.
I wish someone felt like that about me...
It's wednesday and we are halfway through the week, its halloween on friday and i hope i can get a chance to dress up, i haven't dressed up for halloween in 7 years. I will probably end up doing nothing with no one, but i was hoping to find a cool party to go with, nothing too crazy, just a place to dress up for and get wasted.
Tonight is wednesday and th O.C. is back on, i have been watching the last season with Lenny, but on account of a little dispute we had, i probably wont be doing the same this season. I think i am going over to katie's house tonight to watch it with her and devin.
Still haven't met any nice boys, the fact that my spare time has been reduced to pretty much nothing, doesn't help with me needing some affection. I don't necessarily need a "boyfriend" just some affection every once in a while, and the only person i have been able to get any from, is now a person a am suppose to avoid. It wouldn't be so hard to not talk to him if i knew why i want to so bad, i feel like an addict every time i see him, it takes all my energy to keep myself from running to him and enjoy him.
I wish someone felt like that about me...
It's wednesday and we are halfway through the week, its halloween on friday and i hope i can get a chance to dress up, i haven't dressed up for halloween in 7 years. I will probably end up doing nothing with no one, but i was hoping to find a cool party to go with, nothing too crazy, just a place to dress up for and get wasted.
Tonight is wednesday and th O.C. is back on, i have been watching the last season with Lenny, but on account of a little dispute we had, i probably wont be doing the same this season. I think i am going over to katie's house tonight to watch it with her and devin.