call me crazy....

[allmostangel]

but i just can't let it all go like this...im a fighter, and thats exactly what im doing now,,,,im fighting to get my family back...

i called the place chris is staying at and he had already left for work, so i took a chance and called the cell of the gal that gave him a ride to work...she gave the phone to chris and we talked for a moment...he agreed to come over tonight so we could actually sit down and talk face to face...i believe the biggest of problems i have is that i never saw it coming..and when i asked him to explain his reason for leaving, all he had said was that he wasn't happy...well, he's still not happy...so maybe just maybe we can work on this together and find out the stem of his problem..but then again, this could all flop in my face..but at least that way i would know that this is a for sure thing and the reason behind his unhappiness is caused by me...

all i want is for him to be happy..and if that would take losing him as the love of my life and gaining him as a good friend, then so be it...but i just can't let things be as they are now...if anything, i need closure

so if y'all wanna kick me, then do so..but i just can't let go of him, not yet