this is the beginning of the rest of my life
Mark and I have been together almost 3 weeks now. Each day that goes by, I love him so much more. He is literally the most amazing man I've ever met. He is real, sincere, and is so attracted by me I have no idea why. He thinks I'm absolutely beautiful. The way he holds my hands, and kisses them when we walk the beach, or anywhere we are, like he's proud to have me standing next to him. He's wonderful.
He went to field for a week, and we talked everyday, all day. He's actually wanting to spend the rest of his life with me, and I didn't even do anything special. My guard is up, I'm more honest then I should be, and I can make it very hard to love me. I accuse when I shouldn't, I panic for no reason, and I question the things that don't need to be.
I love him. With every fiber of my being. He's shorter then me, has a stutter, and talks with a thick Alabama accent. He's not perfect, he's far from it, I think that's why I'm so attracted to him. He sees past my flaws and sees what's actually there, me.
So, after a lot of long deep conversations, he asked me to be his wife. Said its way way way to soon, but he hates going home to a home without me. And I told him no way. I can't get married again, I just can't. Just the thought of it makes me sick to my stomach.
But- he loves me and I really do love him and a life without him is just seriously no life at all. So if he asks me again, I'll say yes. Its not going to be easy, its going to be so hard, but I'm willing to put up the effort, because he's worth it.
He's my happily ever after.
He went to field for a week, and we talked everyday, all day. He's actually wanting to spend the rest of his life with me, and I didn't even do anything special. My guard is up, I'm more honest then I should be, and I can make it very hard to love me. I accuse when I shouldn't, I panic for no reason, and I question the things that don't need to be.
I love him. With every fiber of my being. He's shorter then me, has a stutter, and talks with a thick Alabama accent. He's not perfect, he's far from it, I think that's why I'm so attracted to him. He sees past my flaws and sees what's actually there, me.
So, after a lot of long deep conversations, he asked me to be his wife. Said its way way way to soon, but he hates going home to a home without me. And I told him no way. I can't get married again, I just can't. Just the thought of it makes me sick to my stomach.
But- he loves me and I really do love him and a life without him is just seriously no life at all. So if he asks me again, I'll say yes. Its not going to be easy, its going to be so hard, but I'm willing to put up the effort, because he's worth it.
He's my happily ever after.