its the name of the game
Welp... I had Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday night off from work. Long weekend. It was pretty awesome. Saw mark Friday, went to the movies, saw shark night 3D, gay, and then he dropped me off at home. Then Saturday around 11amish he picked me up, we checked into our hotel, and then went to Walmart, bought some panties (much needed) and went to the dollar store for snacks.
Went back to the hotel, had a lot I'm talking a lot of sex. Gosh I've never been so sore. Lmao. But then we got in the shower, and went to dinner at the restaurant on the pier, he's never been there before. We both ate these big fat burgers, garlic fries, shared a milk shake and watched the sunset. Beautiful. Took some pictures. Walked back to his truck, then met up with my aunt and uncle at the harbor, visited for a few and then headed back to the hotel. Had much much more sex, and fell INSTANTLY asleep on his chest, well my head was buried in his chest :) it was absolutely soothing and felt so ... right.
Woke up around 5am lol we are both use to waking up early or me working nights. So more sex. I grabbed his phone to mess around on his fb.. and uh, went into his email... which I shouldn't have and wont go into detail about what I found, but it wasn't the best thing to find. So went out had a cig, cried it out to myself for a few minutes, felt better and went back in. We spoke about it, I let him know I didn't like it, didn't want it going on and refuse to be a doormat. So I told him to get everything out in the open now so we can discuss calmly and work through what we can and deal with what we can't.
So, he said there was nothing else. Okay, fine. So we cleaned up, got dressed went back to my house, and I changed into ny bathing suit and we went boogie boarding at the beach. Came home. He sat down with my aunt and uncle, they all had the talk... to make sure he's a good guy and what his motives were. Then whatever and we woke up this morning. He got a text at like 830am, and you know I couldn't resist looking so I asked if I could and he said yes no problem. So...
I look at it, and its a picture from a girl named stacy, of her boobs. So I make a loud fml laugh and look at him and threw his phone at him and said oohh well I thought there was nothing else... and he looked at his phone and sighed with frustration and got up to follow me, and I told him no, I needed a shower and to give me space. So I showered and came out got dressed. He had his stuff ready and said that if I moved my car he could get out and leave. So I walked him out to his truck and we stood there talking for like 30 minutes, sorta figured things out but not really yanno?
So he left and I cleaned the house and made breakfast and relaxed for a little while before texting him to see how he was and he was taking a long ass time to respond so I got mad and told him I was on my way to pulgas and he told me no just meet him in oceanside. So I did, where we talked for a few hours and then my aunt called and said they were at the harbor so we drove there and hung out with them, took pictures of the sunset and rainbows and had a decent time. I drove mark to his truck and we spoke a little more. I asked him if this was the last time I was going to see him..
He got kind of confused and asked if I was breaking up with him and I said no, I just wasn't sure because yanno, he got caught, and instead of working things out with me you'd figure he'd ditch me and find someone else that he can start over with. So I went home as did he and we texted til he went to sleep. I wish I was there to sleep on him again. I'm tired, and could use cuddles and arms wrapped around me all night. Its seriously been too long since I've had someone hold me all night. I don't want to lose it.
I don't want to lose him.
Went back to the hotel, had a lot I'm talking a lot of sex. Gosh I've never been so sore. Lmao. But then we got in the shower, and went to dinner at the restaurant on the pier, he's never been there before. We both ate these big fat burgers, garlic fries, shared a milk shake and watched the sunset. Beautiful. Took some pictures. Walked back to his truck, then met up with my aunt and uncle at the harbor, visited for a few and then headed back to the hotel. Had much much more sex, and fell INSTANTLY asleep on his chest, well my head was buried in his chest :) it was absolutely soothing and felt so ... right.
Woke up around 5am lol we are both use to waking up early or me working nights. So more sex. I grabbed his phone to mess around on his fb.. and uh, went into his email... which I shouldn't have and wont go into detail about what I found, but it wasn't the best thing to find. So went out had a cig, cried it out to myself for a few minutes, felt better and went back in. We spoke about it, I let him know I didn't like it, didn't want it going on and refuse to be a doormat. So I told him to get everything out in the open now so we can discuss calmly and work through what we can and deal with what we can't.
So, he said there was nothing else. Okay, fine. So we cleaned up, got dressed went back to my house, and I changed into ny bathing suit and we went boogie boarding at the beach. Came home. He sat down with my aunt and uncle, they all had the talk... to make sure he's a good guy and what his motives were. Then whatever and we woke up this morning. He got a text at like 830am, and you know I couldn't resist looking so I asked if I could and he said yes no problem. So...
I look at it, and its a picture from a girl named stacy, of her boobs. So I make a loud fml laugh and look at him and threw his phone at him and said oohh well I thought there was nothing else... and he looked at his phone and sighed with frustration and got up to follow me, and I told him no, I needed a shower and to give me space. So I showered and came out got dressed. He had his stuff ready and said that if I moved my car he could get out and leave. So I walked him out to his truck and we stood there talking for like 30 minutes, sorta figured things out but not really yanno?
So he left and I cleaned the house and made breakfast and relaxed for a little while before texting him to see how he was and he was taking a long ass time to respond so I got mad and told him I was on my way to pulgas and he told me no just meet him in oceanside. So I did, where we talked for a few hours and then my aunt called and said they were at the harbor so we drove there and hung out with them, took pictures of the sunset and rainbows and had a decent time. I drove mark to his truck and we spoke a little more. I asked him if this was the last time I was going to see him..
He got kind of confused and asked if I was breaking up with him and I said no, I just wasn't sure because yanno, he got caught, and instead of working things out with me you'd figure he'd ditch me and find someone else that he can start over with. So I went home as did he and we texted til he went to sleep. I wish I was there to sleep on him again. I'm tired, and could use cuddles and arms wrapped around me all night. Its seriously been too long since I've had someone hold me all night. I don't want to lose it.
I don't want to lose him.