its the way your heart sounds when it beats with mine
So remember when I said last night, I felt like Elmer was acting weird and I felt like something was going on. Yeah what a bomb shell that was. This morning, he texted me and forwarded me a text from his ex. She basically said that she is moving back to Oklahoma in August because she can't stand that she's not his one and only. My heart sank when I read that. I told him I'm going to stop talking to him and let him figure out his life. I told him I refuse to come in-between him and his family ever. I didn't talk to him after that, he kept asking if I was okay and I just ignored him. There was nothing I could say that would change what's going on.
My heart hurts for her because I understand how she feels. But my heart hurts for me because I'm in this situation. I am not sure how I could let my guard down with someone who I know will smash my heart to smitherines. I feel it coming. I do. But I try not to talk to him but he always catches me and tells me exactly what I want to hear. He called me earlier before work and he asked what was wrong and I said obviously you know what's wrong. So he said he doesn't want her and wants her out of his house as soon as possible.
But... in August they go to Oklahoma together they are driving together but wont be seeing eachother while they are there for the most part. My concern is the drive there and back... that's a lot of time together and talking and... maybe working things out. I use to love getting his texts but now... when I see his name pop up in a text, I get nervous and scared thinking this is going to be the one where he tells me he's going back to her.
This hurts on so many levels.
My heart hurts for her because I understand how she feels. But my heart hurts for me because I'm in this situation. I am not sure how I could let my guard down with someone who I know will smash my heart to smitherines. I feel it coming. I do. But I try not to talk to him but he always catches me and tells me exactly what I want to hear. He called me earlier before work and he asked what was wrong and I said obviously you know what's wrong. So he said he doesn't want her and wants her out of his house as soon as possible.
But... in August they go to Oklahoma together they are driving together but wont be seeing eachother while they are there for the most part. My concern is the drive there and back... that's a lot of time together and talking and... maybe working things out. I use to love getting his texts but now... when I see his name pop up in a text, I get nervous and scared thinking this is going to be the one where he tells me he's going back to her.
This hurts on so many levels.