good morning beautiful, how was your night...
So for some reason, july is going by pretty fucking slow. I keep thinking its two days ahead of what it actually is. I'm not sure why, all day yesterday I thought it was the 7th, and no.. that's today. Sigh.
Yesterday I was energized when I came to work, all smiles and everything because of something Elmer texted me. I asked him wht he wants to wait for me to get there, when he could probably get a girl very easy there without the hassel of waiting or having to come here and drive them up there. He said I make him very happy and he hasn't felt this way in a long time. So of course that made me feel nice.
But today or well yesterday when I got off work, I slept most of the day and so we didn't really talk much. And he seemed like something was bothering him but didn't tell me what it was and insisted he was fine..
Arg. And normally he has already texted me by now but he hasn't. So I do wonder what's up and wish he'd just tell me. Its weird because when we don't talk I miss him. I hate it. Because of course I wonder if he feels the same or yanno, just all my insecurities come out when we don't talk.
Even though I'm losing weight and looking great, I'm still so insecure. I wish it would go away so I could be confident and hold my head high and not wonder who's thinking what about me. I wonder where I got so lost and fucked up.
Yesterday I was energized when I came to work, all smiles and everything because of something Elmer texted me. I asked him wht he wants to wait for me to get there, when he could probably get a girl very easy there without the hassel of waiting or having to come here and drive them up there. He said I make him very happy and he hasn't felt this way in a long time. So of course that made me feel nice.
But today or well yesterday when I got off work, I slept most of the day and so we didn't really talk much. And he seemed like something was bothering him but didn't tell me what it was and insisted he was fine..
Arg. And normally he has already texted me by now but he hasn't. So I do wonder what's up and wish he'd just tell me. Its weird because when we don't talk I miss him. I hate it. Because of course I wonder if he feels the same or yanno, just all my insecurities come out when we don't talk.
Even though I'm losing weight and looking great, I'm still so insecure. I wish it would go away so I could be confident and hold my head high and not wonder who's thinking what about me. I wonder where I got so lost and fucked up.