Wow.....um, just wow.....

[alixownsxyou]

Ok last night was fuckin awesome. After me and my mom yelled and cried at each other and she told me I cant move out, I gave up and left to Sarah's. We got dressed up in our Halloween costumes, she was a dead porcelain doll and I was a dead 1920's movie star. We looked hot. But we didnt take any pictures, I think we'll get dressed up again tomorrow night and maybe take pics then. But we drove to Brian's house and met up with him and Kabanx. Brian was this trashy ass 80's hair metal dude, and Kabanx was a guy from New Jersey, they looked awesome!!! We followed them to some party over off Westheimer and it was lame ass. We were there not 5 minutes when some girl busted out a bag full of weed and a pipe and I was like "Sarah lets get the fuck out of here." So we left. The party was gay and we didnt know anyone, and everyone looked to be of high school age pretty much, especially the girls. Anyways, so we ended up over at Numbers. A lot of people were dressed up too and so we werent alone. All the boys though, Andy, Randy, Clingbot, Josh, Brian, etc., were all wearing eyeliner, it was fucking hot. Especially Andy, omg I almost fell over he looked so good. Anyways, so everyone got drunk, I got a little buzzed, everyone was dancing and all up in each others shit and cause I had some alcohol in me I danced with a few guys...Andy and Randy grabbed me a few times and Andy kept humping up on me I was like wtf...lol. Everyone was getting shit on last night, I saw Kabanx at one point making out with some dude over in the corner, and then I heard that Josh made out with Colby, which was super weird, since neither of them are gay, and Sarah kissed this girl Marlin, and the boys were all dancing with each other, so jeez, everyone was a little gay curious last night, it was definately the alcohol. Anyways, Sarah's boy Andrew showed up and not long after that we left and Andy came with cause I was going to crash at his place. We went to Late Night Pie and met up with some people for a while, then Sarah and Andrew left for his house for the night. So I went home with Andy. I was really tired and I just wanted to go to sleep but he turned on the Best of Will Ferrell and I got into bed with him and all of a sudden he started kissing me......and stuff.....and well, you can probably guess what happened next, I'm not gonna explain anything here, lol.

So this morning we got breakfast, ate, and went back to bed after a while. Kissed some more and stuff. Fell asleep for a while. I really really like him but I was being so weird and I dont know why, I wouldnt do anything back to him and thats not like me at all, like I barely would kiss him back. I like him a lot....I still just dont know how to tell him, cause I heard he likes me, but I feel like I was just something convienient and there to do last night. Thats really bitchy to say but thats just something that happens to me a lot, everyone likes to mess with me, but not to date me. I'm sure he really likes me...I guess its just something I want to hear from him. I doubt myself too much. Anyways, then Sarah showed up at 1:30 and we went to Artiste and got some lunch and went home. I'm about to go to the mall by myself in 20 min to go buy some new shoes, I might stop at Gabes to say hi.....cause we havent talked in like a week and I'm worried. But this weekend has been really fun so far. Sarahs gonna call Andy for me and see whats up with him concerning me cause I guess I'm just a chicken. I'm not doing anything tonight which is cool, no clubs or parties, nothing, I'm staying in, I need to, I'm getting burned out. But tomorrow night is Halloween and I am DEFINATELY going out, dressed up and all. :D

Anyways, off to buy some new Converses.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo-Ali.