I'm Going To Die Alone p.2

[alisavalley]

Alias Best Friend just got engaged today. i know this because on facebook her status changed from "In A Relationship" to "Engaged" and her picture changed from her and her boyfriend, to her sitting in church, with him in a tux bending on one knee. She has flowers in one hand, and the other hand over her mouth in shock. It was just after they started dating that our communication became severely difficult. And by that i mean, i haven't heard anything about her life from her since she started dating him. I only learn through facebook pictures and wall posts from her Benedictine friends. We're supposed to hang out sometime next week supposedly. This was being arranged before the engagement announcement. Knowing our track record for getting together, who really knows if we will. I'm trying to give specifics. Monday January 7th, sometime after 1pm. I feel that is pretty specific without being too pushy. But then again, by not being pushy, we never get to see each other. I feel like i'm between a rock and a hard place. I really really really want to see her because i miss my friend so incredibly much, but at the same time, the last thing i really want to hear right now is couple news or anything couply. God hates me or something. God doesn't hate, i know. It just feels like God is rubbing this in my face. Grinding it almost.

*repeatedly slams forehead into nearby wall*

Why cant i just for once be happy for my friends instead of being reminded of how singular i am?