I really don't want to jinx it, so I won't say I'm better, but even if this is a temporary reprieve it feels pretty good!

Can't be bothered making a separate post for the health filter, so here's all the boring details.
( boring details )

I try and mention any significant health stuff outside my health filter, and this is definitely significant. It's the worst anxiety and depression I've had while medicated, maybe even the worst since I started getting treatment 10 years ago.
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I spent yesterday getting out of jury duty and hoo boy...how I feel today sure is proof that I am way too sick for Jury Duty.
( brief mention of mental health issues )

1. ENERGY!!
2. WHO NEEDS SLEEP!!
3. OH NO CAN'T SLEEP EVERYTHING IS TERRIFYING ( Read more... )

It hit a bunch of things that are usually triggers for me yet was weirdly cathartic, and wanted to poke at why (beyond "triggers are weird"). But I didn't want to ramble about my personal issues in the reaction post.

Content Note: rape, abuse, trauma (both real and fictional)
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Me: Hmm. I've run out of momentum with this story, guess I'll stop writing it for now ( Read more... )

I've had a few conversations about this lately and feel like poking at it. I'm not sure where I'm heading with the poking, so hopefully it won't be too incoherent. I know I've talked about some of this before but I feel like talking about it again ( Read more... )

Overall the con was pretty good, as far as I can tell based on what I saw around naps.
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The result of reading other people's posts and conversations with other people etc.
( About self esteem and social issues, nothing super dark )

Am still feeling depressed, but getting by. My apologies to the multiple people who subscribed to me recently, you all seem very cool but unfortunately my brain's response to "do I want to see the kinds of posts this person makes on my reading list?" was "Who knows who cares EVERYTHING IS TERRIBLE" which was not very helpful ( Read more... )