As much as I enjoy Dead Like Me, I can have a really hard time watching it. The stuff with the reapers is all fun and silly [while still morbid and dark sometimes], but the scenes with George's family, dealing with the fall-out of her death... I just really can't take. Those scenes are just unrelenting pain and sadness. And it's like they are just ( Read more... )

I'm supposed to be writing a paper right now about ritual in architecture. It's due tomorrow and I have not started it. Three pages... and I just can't start. My head is all fucked up and weird. I've been working non-stop all weekend, and schooling and I just can't work my head. And I need to write this paper. But I can't even start, let ( Read more... )

Almost had another panic attack tonight. Luckily I nipped it in the bud. Marcus answered his phone and I made him just talk at me. "Distract me." There is no reasoning, no "talking me down"... there is only distraction ( Read more... )

Had my first panic attack in a while tonight. Walking to the train from school, some guy was walking towards me. About a foot away from me, he dives for his knee, which appeared to be lunging at me, so my heart started going. Then some really unsettling guy was on the train. Not a loud talky crazy, but a quiet crazy. The loud crazies don't ( Read more... )