crushin
beginning to recognize that i am tryin to hide an attraction for a coworker.
on another note: tomorrow is "christmas" here in NC. i have a lot of debt to pay when i get home. i only bought gifts for my sister... and technically i havnt paid for them yet!
up until today my visit here at my sisters has been less than desirable. but what's cool is i finally decided i was going to have a fabulous day no matter how anyone else felt. and it worked, it works everytime! someone suggested that i might have a tendancy to take on other peoples problems... and then someone else did it right after. these two people dont know eachother. hm. i think i like honest opinion. oh yeah, and before those two, another person. so maybe i am trying to redirect my focus? i need to look in the mirror.
today i realised i have been feeling crappy because i want to have a trancending feeling all the time. someone helped me see that i can just appreciate the knowing feeling i have all the time and well, other stuff, i dont feel like writting it, it was too wonderful, it took me to another level.
i made a cake today. tomorrow i need to go buy some tasty fruit to top it with. it is going to be so dense, rich, and decadent, that it needs some fruit to lighten and cut it down a notch. i hope i dont eat it all on the ride back home so i can give some to sara, amber, joe and trinity.
on another note: tomorrow is "christmas" here in NC. i have a lot of debt to pay when i get home. i only bought gifts for my sister... and technically i havnt paid for them yet!
up until today my visit here at my sisters has been less than desirable. but what's cool is i finally decided i was going to have a fabulous day no matter how anyone else felt. and it worked, it works everytime! someone suggested that i might have a tendancy to take on other peoples problems... and then someone else did it right after. these two people dont know eachother. hm. i think i like honest opinion. oh yeah, and before those two, another person. so maybe i am trying to redirect my focus? i need to look in the mirror.
today i realised i have been feeling crappy because i want to have a trancending feeling all the time. someone helped me see that i can just appreciate the knowing feeling i have all the time and well, other stuff, i dont feel like writting it, it was too wonderful, it took me to another level.
i made a cake today. tomorrow i need to go buy some tasty fruit to top it with. it is going to be so dense, rich, and decadent, that it needs some fruit to lighten and cut it down a notch. i hope i dont eat it all on the ride back home so i can give some to sara, amber, joe and trinity.