my biggest fears
im afraid
to let myself succeed
to begin to succeed
where to start
sometimes i feel like im going to explode for not living to my full potential.
why do i stay lazy.
raw foods and superfood brought me so far before
i think it would help me again.
but where has my inspiration gone?
i think i have got to get out of here, will that even help?
im afraid that ill be left behind.
there is a revolution afoot. there is instand manifestation happening all over. and im letting myself be left out.
why why why whyw hwy whyw hwy hwy why why why why!
this is shitty. i could be famous and successful. if i could only take all the power of this frustration, all the power of my questioning and divert it to my success and empowerment.
i need a retreat. no wait, i need to love and accept myself. i think it was so much easier to love who i was when i had to defend it so often. or was it harder? was it harder so that made it easier? why do i even have to try to understand any of this?
we are meaning makers. i remember saying this over a year ago. we are meaning makers. we want ot figure things out. we cant just let them be. we want everthing to have an answer. thats why the world is go straightforward. we a probably not seeing a lot of really cool shit visually because we have to pretend like everthing is something. like when your in the woods and you think you see something like oh an angel or a flower (in the dead of winter) or a man or whatever then you look closer and your like OH it was only a tree branch touching some leafs or whatever. YOU JUST MISSED GOD (or whatever you call that force of unexplainableness that is everywhere all the time)
BAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
as i sit here, i wonder how amazing it is that i just look so normal and fine on the outside. if someone was looking at me, they would think i am fine and dandy. but little to their perception for i am burning inside. there is a fire blazing. its so hot i can feel it in my ears. i would have to say i must have exploded and didnt even notice. maybe one day ill walk down the street like a bloody loony toon screaming all the things i never said.
to let myself succeed
to begin to succeed
where to start
sometimes i feel like im going to explode for not living to my full potential.
why do i stay lazy.
raw foods and superfood brought me so far before
i think it would help me again.
but where has my inspiration gone?
i think i have got to get out of here, will that even help?
im afraid that ill be left behind.
there is a revolution afoot. there is instand manifestation happening all over. and im letting myself be left out.
why why why whyw hwy whyw hwy hwy why why why why!
this is shitty. i could be famous and successful. if i could only take all the power of this frustration, all the power of my questioning and divert it to my success and empowerment.
i need a retreat. no wait, i need to love and accept myself. i think it was so much easier to love who i was when i had to defend it so often. or was it harder? was it harder so that made it easier? why do i even have to try to understand any of this?
we are meaning makers. i remember saying this over a year ago. we are meaning makers. we want ot figure things out. we cant just let them be. we want everthing to have an answer. thats why the world is go straightforward. we a probably not seeing a lot of really cool shit visually because we have to pretend like everthing is something. like when your in the woods and you think you see something like oh an angel or a flower (in the dead of winter) or a man or whatever then you look closer and your like OH it was only a tree branch touching some leafs or whatever. YOU JUST MISSED GOD (or whatever you call that force of unexplainableness that is everywhere all the time)
BAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
as i sit here, i wonder how amazing it is that i just look so normal and fine on the outside. if someone was looking at me, they would think i am fine and dandy. but little to their perception for i am burning inside. there is a fire blazing. its so hot i can feel it in my ears. i would have to say i must have exploded and didnt even notice. maybe one day ill walk down the street like a bloody loony toon screaming all the things i never said.