well that didn't take long...

love...

i'm such an idiot...

...you're not coming back...

im so upset right now...

i just dont understand any of this...

why... god... ive had to see you holding his hand... handing on him... you talk about missing that other guy so much... jesus... everything he says involves talking like a nigger... everything his friends say to him is about pot and drinking and other nonsense... how do you converse with ( Read more... )

i don't know if you read this... even if you do, i'm sure you won't even have to until monday...

i won't message you this... yet... because i don't want to remind you of me while you're trying to have... fun... with... them...

but... if you do read this... i want to talk to you... at your discretion... for as briefly or as long as you want... about ( Read more... )

but i just need to say... that i'm sorry...

i'm so sorry...

you are the most precious thing in the entire world... i cannot bear the thought that i may have chased you away forever...

i can never tell you how sorry i am... i miss you... i need you... i just want you back... i'm sorry... i'm so sorry...

if today was as painful for you as it was for me...

"...i'm sorry i doubted your love for me and pushed you away... it was a defense mechanism... you of all people should understand that...

all you had to do was fight through it... be the one person who actually stayed around long enough to make that effort...

no matter how many times i threw up my hands, i was always still here waiting... just like ( Read more... )

this time, this place ( Read more... )

...i cant bare this wondering...

...if you read this... god... i dont know... tell me something... tell me anything... whats going on... i need to know...

i miss you... so much...