my heart.
I can't seem to get over this, not even a little bit. why does it hurt so badly? I always told myself that it's impossible to fall for a guy in a month of dating, why does it feel like it's happenning? it's literally heart wrenching and torturing me, and I don't know why. my heart and my head hurts; I'm on the verge of tears 24/7...why is this so painful?
I can't sleep and can hardly eat. I don't want to do anything. sometimes it feels like it gets better for a second or two, but then something reminds me of him. when I do get sleep, I seriously have dreams about him.
so is it love, or just an obsession? who honestly has a breakdown in their car in the Rite-Aid parking lot?
why do I want him so badly? why can't I take my mind off of him?
when will I see him again? does he hurt as badly as I do?
why is this such a big deal to me? shouldn't I have bigger things to worry about? why can't I hate him or just forget about him?
it was one month of my life. one month...and I feel like it was forever.
I waited two years for him to notice me. and it was all gone in a second.
why can't he man up and just see me? what would happen if I did see him again?
why am I so sad? breakups happen, duhh.
it seems like so much more.
I've been through about 5 "breakups" this year, why does this one hurt the most?
why couldn't he have been a jerk?
how can I get him back? just for 2 more months, I want him back.
something needs to be done so I can at least function until I get over him. when will I get over him?
why am I so damn pathetic?
and another thing, I'm ordering my Hebrew purity ring today.
if I hurt this bad after a relationship that I didn't even do much more than kiss, what would it have been like if we had sex? or if I would in any relationship?
I'm done with the whole sex question, anyways. I'm waiting for one person.
I've been debating this for almost 3 years, and now I know that I need to wait.
I can't sleep and can hardly eat. I don't want to do anything. sometimes it feels like it gets better for a second or two, but then something reminds me of him. when I do get sleep, I seriously have dreams about him.
so is it love, or just an obsession? who honestly has a breakdown in their car in the Rite-Aid parking lot?
why do I want him so badly? why can't I take my mind off of him?
when will I see him again? does he hurt as badly as I do?
why is this such a big deal to me? shouldn't I have bigger things to worry about? why can't I hate him or just forget about him?
it was one month of my life. one month...and I feel like it was forever.
I waited two years for him to notice me. and it was all gone in a second.
why can't he man up and just see me? what would happen if I did see him again?
why am I so sad? breakups happen, duhh.
it seems like so much more.
I've been through about 5 "breakups" this year, why does this one hurt the most?
why couldn't he have been a jerk?
how can I get him back? just for 2 more months, I want him back.
something needs to be done so I can at least function until I get over him. when will I get over him?
why am I so damn pathetic?
and another thing, I'm ordering my Hebrew purity ring today.
if I hurt this bad after a relationship that I didn't even do much more than kiss, what would it have been like if we had sex? or if I would in any relationship?
I'm done with the whole sex question, anyways. I'm waiting for one person.
I've been debating this for almost 3 years, and now I know that I need to wait.