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I can't even begin to describe how i feel.
my body is physically aching and sore because of this anxiety and stress.
he told me he was falling in love with me and that he's getting more and more attached to me each day.
...he doesn't want to fall in love and then have to say goodbye when he leaves for California...in 2 months.
he said it would hurt too badly for both of us if we're together.
it'll make it impossible to say goodbye.
he doesn't want to spend time with me because it'll get worse and the feelings will get stronger.
that's why he broke up with me.
I don't think this could hurt anymore than it does, to be honest.
it's worse than Casey. it's worse than Diego.
Micah is perfect and so genuine, but can't handle the pain of saying goodbye and leaving people he loves behind.
my heart literally hurts.
it feels like I'm being choked and my stomach is in my chest; my insides are knottes and I feel sick to my stomach.
I didn't sleep last night. I could hardly eat today.
why does this hurt so bad?
would it hurt as bad if I knew that he wasn't falling in love with me and just didn't like me?
...will I ever see him again?
why is this so incredibly painful?
I don't know what to do. today was the longest day I've had in a while.
when he asked me out, I knew he was moving to California.
I just want to spend as much time as possible with him before he leaves.
there's a good chance I'll never see him again.
why would God do this? why would he put someone so amazing into my life just to yank him out and ship him to California?
heartbreak is the most horrible pain in the world. I can't deal with this.
I want him back...even if it's just for a month or two.
why can't he try? he said he has before and is already avoiding his friends so he won't have to say goodbye.
there has to be another way. this is so incredibly unfair.
why can't he learn how to say goodbye?
I don't want to regret anything and keep wondering "what could've happenned?" or "what if?"
could someone please just tell me...why?
...please?
my body is physically aching and sore because of this anxiety and stress.
he told me he was falling in love with me and that he's getting more and more attached to me each day.
...he doesn't want to fall in love and then have to say goodbye when he leaves for California...in 2 months.
he said it would hurt too badly for both of us if we're together.
it'll make it impossible to say goodbye.
he doesn't want to spend time with me because it'll get worse and the feelings will get stronger.
that's why he broke up with me.
I don't think this could hurt anymore than it does, to be honest.
it's worse than Casey. it's worse than Diego.
Micah is perfect and so genuine, but can't handle the pain of saying goodbye and leaving people he loves behind.
my heart literally hurts.
it feels like I'm being choked and my stomach is in my chest; my insides are knottes and I feel sick to my stomach.
I didn't sleep last night. I could hardly eat today.
why does this hurt so bad?
would it hurt as bad if I knew that he wasn't falling in love with me and just didn't like me?
...will I ever see him again?
why is this so incredibly painful?
I don't know what to do. today was the longest day I've had in a while.
when he asked me out, I knew he was moving to California.
I just want to spend as much time as possible with him before he leaves.
there's a good chance I'll never see him again.
why would God do this? why would he put someone so amazing into my life just to yank him out and ship him to California?
heartbreak is the most horrible pain in the world. I can't deal with this.
I want him back...even if it's just for a month or two.
why can't he try? he said he has before and is already avoiding his friends so he won't have to say goodbye.
there has to be another way. this is so incredibly unfair.
why can't he learn how to say goodbye?
I don't want to regret anything and keep wondering "what could've happenned?" or "what if?"
could someone please just tell me...why?
...please?