Continuing on...
I have gotten to the point where my heart can not possibly break anymore. I am done trying. I know that people are going to judge me... 'Specially when they find out the other details of the story... I don't really fucking care... Honestly, what is the point. The people that are going to judge me, turn their back on me- those are not the type of people that I want in my life anyway. I am not asking you to choose sides, to understand, to help fix. I am asking you to just accept things the way that they are.
There are people that tell me the test of a relationship is if you can keep fighting even when it seems like there is no hope. They make it sound like you are suppose to stay in a relationship forever, even when it isn't going anywhere. Even when only one person is fighting, doing anything they can to make a relationship work. I believe that to an extent. No one will ever feel the same way that I felt. The might be able to relate, but the fact is emotions can only truly be felt by the person feeling them. Sure, there are times when an emotion is shared, but even then... each person feels it differently. You never know how you are going to feel until you get there...
The other side to this is my fault. I could have handled it differently but I am nothing if not unconventional in my dealings of the heart. Hate me if you feel you must, but I really don't have to explain myself to you or anyone else.
All I am going to say about the other part of this mess is: I am in love with Shawn O'Shea. You can't handle that- shut the fuck up.
There are people that tell me the test of a relationship is if you can keep fighting even when it seems like there is no hope. They make it sound like you are suppose to stay in a relationship forever, even when it isn't going anywhere. Even when only one person is fighting, doing anything they can to make a relationship work. I believe that to an extent. No one will ever feel the same way that I felt. The might be able to relate, but the fact is emotions can only truly be felt by the person feeling them. Sure, there are times when an emotion is shared, but even then... each person feels it differently. You never know how you are going to feel until you get there...
The other side to this is my fault. I could have handled it differently but I am nothing if not unconventional in my dealings of the heart. Hate me if you feel you must, but I really don't have to explain myself to you or anyone else.
All I am going to say about the other part of this mess is: I am in love with Shawn O'Shea. You can't handle that- shut the fuck up.