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It's funny how because pain is such a constant part of my life (I'm either in it or I'm scared of being in it), that whenever new pain is added to the mix I crumble into a sobbing pile of hysteria.
And by "funny" I mean it sucks so fucking much.
I managed to injure my right arm pretty damn good scrubbing my bathroom on Sunday. I was favoring it because I'm trying to keep my left hand okay enough to be able to play guitar every day. Can't play if I can't hold a pick though.
I need to see a doctor. I need to try and get an EDS diagnosis and see what I can prevent from happening to me later in life and see if there's anything I can do. I also have a new fun bleeding issue I need to get checked out. But I can't afford my copays at the moment, and just thinking of trying to find a doctor has me anxious and so it's not going to happen anytime soon.
They'll probably just tell me to take advil too. And then I'll go postal and you'll see me on the evening news as the CO girl who took a scalpel and tried to cut out parts of her body in the middle of a doctor's lobby.
It's a bad brain day. I can't take painkillers and I'm whining.
On the bright side, I nearly had a disney princess moment this morning when a little chickadee came up and nearly landed on me to eat the seed he found. That was cool
And by "funny" I mean it sucks so fucking much.
I managed to injure my right arm pretty damn good scrubbing my bathroom on Sunday. I was favoring it because I'm trying to keep my left hand okay enough to be able to play guitar every day. Can't play if I can't hold a pick though.
I need to see a doctor. I need to try and get an EDS diagnosis and see what I can prevent from happening to me later in life and see if there's anything I can do. I also have a new fun bleeding issue I need to get checked out. But I can't afford my copays at the moment, and just thinking of trying to find a doctor has me anxious and so it's not going to happen anytime soon.
They'll probably just tell me to take advil too. And then I'll go postal and you'll see me on the evening news as the CO girl who took a scalpel and tried to cut out parts of her body in the middle of a doctor's lobby.
It's a bad brain day. I can't take painkillers and I'm whining.
On the bright side, I nearly had a disney princess moment this morning when a little chickadee came up and nearly landed on me to eat the seed he found. That was cool