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still not dating.
Saw Aleta the other day. It was hard not to cry and run away. She looked so crushed when she saw me. I feel like an idiot. There is still something there.
Only how can I even approach her without hurting her even further. She had approached me in early Feb to see if we could be friends but I just couldn't even respond to her. I was too afraid she would go off on me some more. She has a temper but then part of what I fell in love with was her always doing exciting things. She never seemed afraid to try things. She once jumped me in the car just to satisfy some curriousity to see if I could drive while she teased the hell out of me. Amazing enough we didn't crash. I could see it in her eyes. I've hurt her.
I wish I could just open my mouth and make amends. I just don't know what would be enough. I know saying I'm sorry isn't enough.
Saw Aleta the other day. It was hard not to cry and run away. She looked so crushed when she saw me. I feel like an idiot. There is still something there.
Only how can I even approach her without hurting her even further. She had approached me in early Feb to see if we could be friends but I just couldn't even respond to her. I was too afraid she would go off on me some more. She has a temper but then part of what I fell in love with was her always doing exciting things. She never seemed afraid to try things. She once jumped me in the car just to satisfy some curriousity to see if I could drive while she teased the hell out of me. Amazing enough we didn't crash. I could see it in her eyes. I've hurt her.
I wish I could just open my mouth and make amends. I just don't know what would be enough. I know saying I'm sorry isn't enough.