Couldn't sleep

[ageone]

Thats nothing new. I keep thinking of just reaching out. But how do I know she wont hurt me like before? I know I hurt her but the words she said, how she reacted, it scared me. I know I did wrong, I know I smashed her heart and I know I deserved to be told off. Heck, I maybe deserved to be punched. She didn't do that though. She only went off verbally.Saying how I lied and cheated and stole her best friend. She was so upset. She didn't start to swear until she started to go on about how I betrayed her and used her and stole her best friend. I think thats what hurt her the most. The betrayal. She kept asking how she was ever going to be able to trust either one of us again. She just looked so angry and hurt. Her words cut me but my reactions towards her and the situation made things even worse. I just shut down didn't talk and then ran away from her.

I'm afraid she's right though. Maybe if I sent a card or a letter. Maybe she wont ever forgive me but if I just try........