just to let you know, i've filled my head with your voice, and now i'm drowning...
oh god, this weekend was the weekend of em all......
well, i've got a number of problems right now, and i feel alright suprisingly...
i might be involved in a lawsuit from my school, two of my friends are expelled, i got my forced hair cut, my parents gave me a basis of rules on which to stay in their house, and they took EVERYTHING away from me.....
they said that i will get thrown out of the house if i continue anti-social behavior or anti-establishment behavior (whatever the fuck that means)......
i got sat down on saturday and got everything read to me, but the whole time my mind was screaming about one thing that i wanted to know...... would they take merritt away.
when they said no and actually encouraged me to spend more time with her, i couldn't believe it...... now nothing else really seems to matter. i guess i feel that way cuz merritts pretty much everything to me and all my problems no longer seem to exist, and i'm glad from that perspective.
but i just want to see merritt right now...... when my mom cut my time with her short today, i just felt myself plummeting towards sadness, and i couldn't express to her how badly i wanted to stay with her, right there. i could feel my eyes burn and i just wanted her to hold me so badly..... now i feel the same. every night i fall asleep, i feel this yearning sadness inside me because i want her to be with me, lying right next to me so badly. i would trade everything just to feel her next to me tonight, just to feel her in my arms.......
i love merritt so much, and every night i wish that i could whisper that to her, and every night i think about what i would do if she was next to me, i think about how wonderful that would be......
i miss her, and i'd give anything for her to sleep alongside me tonight............ i'd give anything.....
i miss you and i love you so much merritt
love,
mike
well, i've got a number of problems right now, and i feel alright suprisingly...
i might be involved in a lawsuit from my school, two of my friends are expelled, i got my forced hair cut, my parents gave me a basis of rules on which to stay in their house, and they took EVERYTHING away from me.....
they said that i will get thrown out of the house if i continue anti-social behavior or anti-establishment behavior (whatever the fuck that means)......
i got sat down on saturday and got everything read to me, but the whole time my mind was screaming about one thing that i wanted to know...... would they take merritt away.
when they said no and actually encouraged me to spend more time with her, i couldn't believe it...... now nothing else really seems to matter. i guess i feel that way cuz merritts pretty much everything to me and all my problems no longer seem to exist, and i'm glad from that perspective.
but i just want to see merritt right now...... when my mom cut my time with her short today, i just felt myself plummeting towards sadness, and i couldn't express to her how badly i wanted to stay with her, right there. i could feel my eyes burn and i just wanted her to hold me so badly..... now i feel the same. every night i fall asleep, i feel this yearning sadness inside me because i want her to be with me, lying right next to me so badly. i would trade everything just to feel her next to me tonight, just to feel her in my arms.......
i love merritt so much, and every night i wish that i could whisper that to her, and every night i think about what i would do if she was next to me, i think about how wonderful that would be......
i miss her, and i'd give anything for her to sleep alongside me tonight............ i'd give anything.....
i miss you and i love you so much merritt
love,
mike