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there comes a time every once in a while where someones gotta look at what their doing with their life more indepth..... today i did just that
today i was suspended, which has never happened before, and i'm put on behavioral probation. i realize that how i view authority isn't really right. i've always loved to be anti-authority, ever since i was a kid. whenever a teacher or my parents fucked up, i always loved it, and i still do. but i think now i've really gotta stop viewing authority the way i do. it's a bullshit game that i haven't grown out of, and my dad has always been on top of it...... i dunno
then my dad asked me if i liked it at FGR and i said no and yes at the same time, and i told him that i wanted to go back to hartland. he asked if it was cuz merritt goes there, and i said not really. i told him how it would be an added benefit, but theres more than just that reason why i want hartland back. i want it back because i have room to express myself without being raped inside-out by upperclassmen......
but today, after viewing myself i came across these points in my life that i am going to follow
1. i have to grow up and learn to accept rules
2. i gotta apply myself even more this semester, so i can make an impression (and go back to hartland)
3. keep on helping my friends out, don't give up on them
4. don't give up on quitting smoking
and as far as i can see, following those is just about self-discipline..... but i figure so long as i have merritt, i'm happy, and no matter how many issues i face the only thing that holds me together is her..... i'd be nowhere without her and i love her so much......
- mike
today i was suspended, which has never happened before, and i'm put on behavioral probation. i realize that how i view authority isn't really right. i've always loved to be anti-authority, ever since i was a kid. whenever a teacher or my parents fucked up, i always loved it, and i still do. but i think now i've really gotta stop viewing authority the way i do. it's a bullshit game that i haven't grown out of, and my dad has always been on top of it...... i dunno
then my dad asked me if i liked it at FGR and i said no and yes at the same time, and i told him that i wanted to go back to hartland. he asked if it was cuz merritt goes there, and i said not really. i told him how it would be an added benefit, but theres more than just that reason why i want hartland back. i want it back because i have room to express myself without being raped inside-out by upperclassmen......
but today, after viewing myself i came across these points in my life that i am going to follow
1. i have to grow up and learn to accept rules
2. i gotta apply myself even more this semester, so i can make an impression (and go back to hartland)
3. keep on helping my friends out, don't give up on them
4. don't give up on quitting smoking
and as far as i can see, following those is just about self-discipline..... but i figure so long as i have merritt, i'm happy, and no matter how many issues i face the only thing that holds me together is her..... i'd be nowhere without her and i love her so much......
- mike