falling out of favor
I dont know ... I never thought Id say this, but I dont think I can consider Lindsay my best friend anymore. Its just after yesterday, it really threw into light the way she and her family have been treating me and mine. I mean, a few days ago, her mom is kissing me goodbye and talking about a great time in the Dells, and how glad they are that we are going and then, her family is all pissed off at my family over something really stupid. And the last several times I feel that her looking through my family when she sees them (or cares to notice them), and treating them badly when she does bother to take notice its really hurtful. Her father came over the other day to collect his son from playing with Matthew. Apparently there was some misunderstanding in his house, and he was in a bad mood, so he was rude to me at my own door. My mother heard. She agreed that he was rude. Anyways, Lindsay basically gave me the 3rd degree on the situation later, and placed big blame on my family for their misunderstanding. I was so angry about it last night on top of that, Justin and I argued, and it took half of the night to resolve. But at least that is better.
I care for Lindsay, but I cannot just let this slide. Too much has gone too far with her and her family. The thing is, I can never bring it up, because that would mean a fight and the most definite end of our friendship. I dont not want to be friends with her but I will definitely be watching myself and how close I get. I dont think Ill be going out of my way to see her anymore. Im tired of making all the efforts and getting burned by her flightiness. In the event of a fight, anyways, shed never see things my way, so wed have to agree to disagree anyway, so why bother even bringing it up? Amanda thinks that I might be being too harsh by so willingly casting off her best friends title. I dont know just seems to me that a best friend wouldnt do that. Shes been mine for 8 years but I just dont see her ever changing. Shes too far gone like her family.
Justin says that were GOING to the Dells and were going to have a good time. Sigh. I really hope so. Im counting on the fact that he has a car, we can do what we want and NOT be with Lindsay and Scott the whole time, and it is now being considered a blessing to me that we have to come back early.