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[adrenaline2268]

just wanted to let you all know i'm okay. I've been afraid to sign on here because I thought I would re-read a bunch of entries about Joey and cry all day, so I had to wait until I was fairly confident I was over him..... aaaaaaaaaaand here I am, apparently over him. It doesn't make sense. It didn't take long at all. Normally when a relationship ends for me, it's because I have some other boy to fall back on. This time I'm on my own. I mean not completely. There's an overwhelming number of guys that are interested in me. I have no idea why and I honestly don't know if i like it haha. One of them is 32 years old so I think I'll be staying away from that. All of the others creep me out. I'm not quite sure why but it bothers me that they like me. I want to tell them to back off. I'm so tempted to scream, "I'M A BITTER WENCH AND IM GOING TO HURT YOU, RUN WHILE YOU CAN".... but at the same me, i don't like hurting people's feelings, and sometimes the attention is nice. There is one boy, however, that I am interested in, and of course its the option that would be the least likely to work out. His name is Marty, he has a terrible reputation, and he lives an hour away. He also has a t-rex tattoo, so i think the good outweighs the bad hahahaha.

Well, aside from behaving like a boy crazy 14 year old, I am doing well. I still love my job and my co-workers, and I honestly can't see myself ever being sad over Joey ever again. I'm not even mad at him. A week ago if you had asked me how i felt i would have said that i wanted him to get hit by a truck, or drink bleach instead of water, or some other freak accident.  Now, I honestly just want him to be happy, and that feels pretty amazing