Okay. No more feeling sorry. Logically, there's just as much chance things may go great as they may go bad. And that's just chance; if I try really hard, I've got even better odds. If I make a bunch of little goals, eventually they'll add up into one big one--whatever that is. I'll figure that out.

What was it that Rumi said? "Let the beauty of ( Read more... )

Sitting in class today, I realized something about myself. There are so many things I want to do. I want to learn how to cook, fold origami, maybe play the guitar. I want to do well in Algebra this year and grow my hair long, to see if I'll like it. I want to travel. I want to learn Spanish and Japanese, and of course I want to write books--more ( Read more... )

I would rather be lonely and free than trapped and angry. Even if I'm not cool, even if I can only hover at the edge of every friendship I ever want, I won't go back. I don't think I could even if there were a bit of me inside that wanted to do so.

Um. Yeah.

Umm. New userpics, new layout, new profile. It probably shouldn't feel as significant as it does ( Read more... )

I ran into Cree in the hair salon today. I was so happy I almost cried.

Maybe I'm lonelier than I thought.

This tears it: I'm probably going to the public high school next year. Bigger post to come, I guess.

I do not believe in absolution. I believe that the world is gray as a result of dark and light, good and evil; however, I can never be certain which is which. I believe in men who lay down their lives, motivated by something which I can never understand; I believe in women who delve into twisting and star-stained paths. I believe in sorrow. I ( Read more... )

This year, I will:

-- Excersize more [if only to make Dad happy]
-- Study harder [because it makes sense]
-- Write more~ [but not during Math]
-- Post more of said writing
-- Get some idea of what I want to be when I grow up [Being a homoerotic fantasy writer doth not a respectable career make. Maybe an editor? I know Dad wants me to go into law...]
-- ( Read more... )

I PASSED THE TEST~

I can DRIVE now~!! Even though I'm still kinda freaked. But~ I~ PASSED!

I've been busy. In fact, it feels as though I've been on a roller coaster. Not the "oh, shit, I'm gonna die" kind, but the kind that shudders and jumps at points but generally makes you giggle because you don't feel like you should be scared...

But that didn't make any sense.

I now play Mahaado at 
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So, a break to yak about school.

I got a C on my Algebra 1 test today. Of course I didn't study for the test, but I'm still pretty pissed. Shouldn't the world realize that it totally owes me an easy B by now?

In any case, Dr. L. says that if I want to get into any school I want, I can only really afford to make a B in math. So when my evil ( Read more... )