Aug 08, 2011 18:29
I shouldnt have to text someone 25 times before they respond. If you want to piss me off beyond belief then now you know what to do... its one thing you will never see me do... its fucking ignorant... i feel like im in one of those hamster balls running around doing the same exact stupid tricks over and over again. There's a padlock restricting me access to the outside world so i feel trapped. Only certain people know the combination for my freedom, they "borrow" me for awhile but they never forget to drop me back off. Wandering around has never gotten me no where.
its been quite sometime since i was given this bubble. Its for sale if you want it, but i cant guarantee you will enjoy what you find inside. id shake your hand, but as you can see, im quite restricted. How much you ask? You can have it... take it....
I wake up everyday to the never ending nightmare i call "Shaun's Life" Sometimes i dont even eat... ive been gaining even more weight lately... lovely... i would kill to be back at the weight i was in highschool KILL.
Next month is my next doctor's appointment... i dont want to be on this medicine anymore... it has harmed me more than helped but i am afraid of what will happen if i stop taking them
Cried a few times last night... strange... usually never happens anymore. Im out of smoke.. i should have stopped when i had the chance. i feel like shit because i remember telling ash i would rather hangout with her than smoke yet i smoke the entire time shes with me. If only ya'll knew the reason i smoke and drink and fuck myself up. Maybe you should ask sometime....