Comments | adelaide129: please allow me to introduce myself.

adelaide129

please allow me to introduce myself.

Sep 21, 2011 09:34

i worked at a tex-mex restaurant up in litchfield. i was a busgirl, and my mother was a waitress. i remember one of my first nights working there;i was having some difficulty. it was during the dinner rush, and i couldn't get the food to the customers at the bar fast enough so the bartender picked up my slack. at one point i was bagging a delivery ( Read more... )

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littlestarlet September 26 2011, 21:33:15 UTC

i feel like i might've mentioned this before, but your mother having you keep everything in your room reminds me of the family i was working for last year. you never would've known there was a child in that house unless you happened to pass by the little room full of books and toys (all meticulously kept in their rightful places, of course) a sad thing, not to let their presence feel welcome.

adelaide129 October 12 2011, 13:34:52 UTC

it's so incredibly sad. i find myself doing this to my roommates [though we have much less space so there really isn't room for shoes by the door] but i feel sad; even if i don't belong, they might and they shouldn't be made to feel unwelcome. sigh.

Response jyellen September 30 2011, 05:20:33 UTC

Hello Sara! This is a heartbreaking story. I really do not know you very well at all, but as far as I can tell, at least in the places I see you, you do not come off as "the ape flinging shit to get more attention" and that may just be a shame (Well, maybe if that is what you really were I'd say something different, but you have never come off to me as someone flinging yourself here and there to capture a look, if you know what I mean). But, now that I am reading what you are expressing here I am wondering if you are the opposite of what you are calling yourself? What if I asked you what kind of attention do you want? Is their an endpoint to the attention? Is there something specific within you that you want acknowledged outside of you? There is a persistent struggle, I think, in everyone in making "them-self" coherent, if that makes sense. Some do it better then others, I myself am no good at it, and it's for reasons that are probably not far different from yours. Well, I guess I could not say I am sure that that is what you are ( ... )

Re: Response adelaide129 October 12 2011, 13:45:38 UTC

Hello Jason! what i find most fascinating about your comment is your carefulness. that is so very appreciated, and i think it's most wise of you to be gentle when so many others lack tact ( ... )

Re: Response jyellen October 17 2011, 06:16:40 UTC

Well, I guess, in a sense, you can only be loved for as much as you can make coherent, correct? Like you are known for what you can articulate--verbally and non-verbally. Better said, you are known for what you do more than what you are because self-definitions are tricky, if not impossible. I think. We change depending on where and who we are with. And those are elements of you too, even if within you don't mean it, it still becomes you---which can cause immense conflicts... Anyway, I have met many creative people that were/are deeply destructive. So, I guess it depends on the rest of you, and also what you create. I do not know you well enough to understand what makes you so destructive, so I won't agree or disagree. But, one thing I will say, if you want to be a writer, you should pursue it, despite your friends. What kinds of things do you think about writing? You already have a unique voice in writing, I guess it is just a matter of figuring out the best way of using it. I think there is a danger in what you wrote, however. If ( ... )