please allow me to introduce myself.

[adelaide129]

i worked at a tex-mex restaurant up in litchfield. i was a busgirl, and my mother was a waitress. i remember one of my first nights working there;i was having some difficulty. it was during the dinner rush, and i couldn't get the food to the customers at the bar fast enough so the bartender picked up my slack. at one point i was bagging a delivery

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Re: Response

[jyellen]

Well, I guess, in a sense, you can only be loved for as much as you can make coherent, correct? Like you are known for what you can articulate--verbally and non-verbally. Better said, you are known for what you do more than what you are because self-definitions are tricky, if not impossible. I think. We change depending on where and who we are with. And those are elements of you too, even if within you don't mean it, it still becomes you---which can cause immense conflicts... Anyway, I have met many creative people that were/are deeply destructive. So, I guess it depends on the rest of you, and also what you create. I do not know you well enough to understand what makes you so destructive, so I won't agree or disagree. But, one thing I will say, if you want to be a writer, you should pursue it, despite your friends. What kinds of things do you think about writing? You already have a unique voice in writing, I guess it is just a matter of figuring out the best way of using it. I think there is a danger in what you wrote, however. If writing gnaws in you and you do not do it, I think that is a way of being destructive. For example, I am obsessed with writing. My closest friend does not read. But when I am around and am feeling discouraged or the writing is not coming outwards, I can kill any kind of positivity because I am compressing a certain joy within and that works it way out to him even if he does not read what i write. So, I guess there is a different audience for different things, but if you are passionate about something you should pursue it, because that is all you, yourself, have. It is not selfish to want attention. For me when I think of selfish, it is something that borders violence. Like, if you purposely work to undermine those around you for your own practical means, thereby hurting others, that is selfish. I don't get that from your words. All this you are writing about love, it is a beautiful thought, truly. But if you do not allow it to leak from you in the form you believe it should come in, it won't be here. And maybe that is selfish. We live in a perpetually imperfect world that will always need to be corrected. I think the best thing to do is to try and take the form you think is best for it. But perhaps I am also just "babbling."

Anyway, I read no babbles in your response, so I will not accept your apology.

Warm regards,
Jason