cut my ear off and send it someone via mail plz. thx.
hmph. I have been in a mood lately. And not a grand one either.
last night all i kept doing was holding back tears.
It was bobby's birthday and I kept a straight face all night. I had a good time with them, I didn't want to be selfish so I held in how I felt almost all night. Then Bry started texting me, and while letting him know what I was going through...i had bobby stop at a gas station so I could buy a 6-pack. I NEVER stop for alcohol. EVER....well last night I did. I went home with it and watched the green-mile. Cried my eyes out of their sockets....sobbed the night away. Drank...and went to bed. WOOOOO..........that was after bobby's shin-dig. However...I will say I needed it. I needed that one night of leave me the fuck alone....let me cry....let me be sad .........let me be a loner. Just one night.
It hurts to think someone you are in love with can only give you that inkling of time....which is just not enough. it's been since thursday..last thursday....grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
Oh well...funnnnn-filled weekend ahead of me!!
Work, work, bobby's other shin-dig, court, air/model show, woodstock, then work.
FATHER'S DAY! BAH! I spent to much money....arg. It's worth it, I miss my dad...I'm glad I will see him for a couple hours tomorrow.
I'm done....
peace.
~S h a n
last night all i kept doing was holding back tears.
It was bobby's birthday and I kept a straight face all night. I had a good time with them, I didn't want to be selfish so I held in how I felt almost all night. Then Bry started texting me, and while letting him know what I was going through...i had bobby stop at a gas station so I could buy a 6-pack. I NEVER stop for alcohol. EVER....well last night I did. I went home with it and watched the green-mile. Cried my eyes out of their sockets....sobbed the night away. Drank...and went to bed. WOOOOO..........that was after bobby's shin-dig. However...I will say I needed it. I needed that one night of leave me the fuck alone....let me cry....let me be sad .........let me be a loner. Just one night.
It hurts to think someone you are in love with can only give you that inkling of time....which is just not enough. it's been since thursday..last thursday....grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
Oh well...funnnnn-filled weekend ahead of me!!
Work, work, bobby's other shin-dig, court, air/model show, woodstock, then work.
FATHER'S DAY! BAH! I spent to much money....arg. It's worth it, I miss my dad...I'm glad I will see him for a couple hours tomorrow.
I'm done....
peace.
~S h a n