i think i have been handleing this situation all wrong. i may have said some things on this whole thing that may have pissed some of you off, and im sorry i never answer my cell phone. but thats because its not mine anymore ( Read more... )

my whole life has fallen from underneath me in the last month. i lost the girl i thought i was going to marry at one point. i lost all but one of the friends i really wanted to be there. i lost my job. i lost my truck for the time being. i've lost my will. i feel dead on the inside. i have this bad feeling in my gut that no matter what i do i cant ( Read more... )

well, one more thing in my life is lost. i just got fired this morning. some bitch at my work thinks i was sitting in my truck smoking cocaine....yeah....no shit. damn ive been a coke head this whole time AND I DIDNT EVEN FUCKING KNOW IT!!! if she decides to press charges im going to the pokey. and when my family gets wind of this my life is gonna ( Read more... )

havent really done this in a while. i have never been able to sit still long enough. but anywho....things are goin ok now. new years was tight. got tanked. had fun....after midnight of course cuz adam had to work untill 12. fuckin yay. but i still had my share of fun and enjoyment ( Read more... )

finally........I FEEL HAPPY!!! my i dont give a fuck feeling has finally hit me and now i could not care less about everything. im sorry if that makes anybody mad but I....DONT.....GIVE....A FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!

i thought that if i was ever single again it would be a nonstop party. flirt with every girl i see, drunk most of the time. stoned now and again. but its like i feel torn and broken. every time i see a girl all i see is pain. when i see a girl all i see is.....nothing. where i once saw love and warmth and solace.....all i see now is emptyness and ( Read more... )

lately shit has been fucked. i made some mistakes and hurt some very close people to me. and in the process i lost a very good thing. i had it good, fucked up, stumbled and tripped, and fucking lost it....i lost it. that is a good way to describe how i feel right now.....lost. there is so much shit running through my head right now and i dont know ( Read more... )

my parents are gone for the weekend, finaly i can run around bare ass naked WITHOUT freaking out the family.......im bored......help. havent hung out with chris in a while. that bites. i miss my homie. there was a time when we both would have swore nothing was going to keep us apart.....i miss those times more than anything. I LOVE YOU MAN, I WANNA ( Read more... )

I MIGHT BE WORKING AT SCHUCKS!! Took a stupid test today, i did above average. Berni said i did better than most but not as good as some. fuckin awesome dude. that would be cool to work there. my first real job working with car stuff. that would kick ass. fun shit man. the only thing that was negative today was jana and i talking about moving out. ( Read more... )

Good things to report tonight. went and filled out an application to Schucks to day. took it in....yep yep. i hope i get that job. that would be pimp. rolen in the money. HELLLLLLL YEAH beatch. then i wouldent have to drive for my dad that often.....maybe. i dont know what else he would do though. he cant drive yet. but that is coming soon i think ( Read more... )