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My weekend was different. We didn’t really do much of anything, besides go to Dee’s house on Saturday and sample some of her famous Frito Pie, haha. And then on Sunday we went to the AFB and tried to cash a check but they wouldn’t let us, so today if Robert doesn’t send us the money he promised, then we are going after school. But I’m getting ahead of myself, then after the AFB we went to Wal-mart. Let me say something about Sunday, we went to church, right? I wore a DRESS AND I wore 3 inch heels, and my feet KILLED me, haha, and then on top of that my mom made me walk around the AFB then go to Wal-mart, and I was in PAIN PAIN PAIN and I never want to go through that one again, ever, even though I know this Sunday I will be wearing my heels again. I’m planning on wearing my heels on Friday when I get to Denton.
I forgot to add that in, I’m going to be in Denton this Friday, and I’m going to be with Vernon and William and Nathan, and hopefully, you Sarah. I haven’t really talked to Vernon but Will said that I’m invited, and I wish I could talk to Vernon, but I don’t know his number or anything, AND my cell is off. I’m going to call him soon though, so please (This is to Sarah) tell him that I’m going to be calling him ASAP. I hope that Sarah is there though, because I really want to see you… Badly.
Also! I went to work yesterday and answered the phones I don’t know when I’m going back but I’m hopefully going to be going back soon, whenever Grant gets her Keyboard and her Printer, then I will probably be working on a daily basis, and the hours aren’t bad, they close at 6, and I’d be home at 630, hell that’s the perfect job.
I feel bad though because last night I promised Juan that I’d call him back cos he wanted to go take a shower, but I passed out, and when my mom got back from the gym, instead of waking me up, she turned off my light and I slept until 3 am until I realized how long I had been sleeping, and I was angry. Now I’m going to have to apologize to Juan when I do talk to him tonight. But on Sunday when I talked to him, I was a bitch, and I told him that he would regret being with Annie, and that he’ll realize his mistake soon enough. And he WILL, honestly, if he thinks that it’s going to be all happy, happy then there’s something wrong with him. If you yourself will say that your girlfriend is a hoe before you two were together, she’s not going to change. She cheated on him numerous times before, but maybe because he’s not a virgin anymore, and giving it to her, then she won’t choose to hurt him. But I still have a feeling that that bitch will put him in a world of pain. And I’m sorry for him. It was so funny how I said “I wish I was a whore” and we just kept talking about it, and I said “well, you’re dating one.” Haha, if that’s what he wants, a whore, he can have his whore. I was never his whore. He was trying to flip the script and said because I’ve dated more people, that I’m the whore, and that I had sex with Orre so often, that it made me a whore, too. I’m not the one sleeping with an ex of mine that used to cheat on me with my homeboys all of the time, she’s a homiehopper, and he’ll figure that all out, in due time. I hope they stay together for a long time, and when it all comes down to push and shove, that he’ll find out how long she’s been cheating on him, and he’ll break apart. And then the perfect thing would be for me to come back into his life, looking 50x better than Annie ever has, and he’ll want me back, but I’ll have a big ass rock on my finger, and then I’ll be like “HA too late mothafucka!” … Okay, big dream, if anything, I doubt I’ll be engaged. But I’m hoping to be with somebody, hopefully that would be Carlos. He’d be so angry, and he’d hate himself inside. And you know what? He deserves that.
I’m waiting on my letter from Carlos, and I can’t wait to talk to him. I find myself thinking about him a lot, wondering about future, and having my head in the clouds. I can’t concentrate for hours after I start thinking about him, and I think about him all of the time. It’s crazy. I told William about it and he wasn’t so excited about it, as I was. He says that anyone can say anything in a letter, but a person can’t have so much in common with you and just be making it up when he didn’t know a thing about me. how would he know that I was reading Odd Thomas, how would he know that I’m crazy about animals? It just doesn’t make any sense why no one can be happy for me for ONCE. I’m happy about him and Nathan and all he talks about is Nathan, and when I tell him about someone that I feel that I could care about, he says that I’m retarded. I just can’t win. He doesn’t understand the hurt he puts me through every time I try to lean on him for emotional support. *sigh* I just want William to for once like my boyfriends, or someone that I have feelings for, for once. It’s like if I have a fit or don’t like the person he’s with I’m a “bitch” and I’m “jealous” but he has NEVER NOT NEVER ONCE liked one of my exes. The only one that he could stand for a little while would have been Juan, but he’s on the same level as I am with Juan.
Maybe he’ll learn to like Carlos. If not, I give up on trying to please him. He’s not trying to please me with being with Nathan, so why please him, right?
I need to get my hair did, and I’m hoping I’ll get it don’t tonight, and if not tonight, tomorrow night. I’m praying. I’ve lost a good 10 to 15 pounds, and I want to look cute when I’m in Denton. I called Orre but as usual, he wasn’t there. I’m thinking of popping up over there, and busting his ass in the act of fucking with another female. So I can finally be over that mothafucka. I’m tired of it, I haven’t talked to him YET since I left Denton, and I’ve paged him, his cell is always off, and then it’s disconnected, and his ass ain’t ever home. He’s going to say “Well your phone isn’t on” FUCK YOU BITCH I call you you better fucking get home and wait for my goddamn it call. It’s not free to call someone to see if they are home or not, damn it, and I’m sick of it!
Well that’s all for the day, good day and good bye.
I forgot to add that in, I’m going to be in Denton this Friday, and I’m going to be with Vernon and William and Nathan, and hopefully, you Sarah. I haven’t really talked to Vernon but Will said that I’m invited, and I wish I could talk to Vernon, but I don’t know his number or anything, AND my cell is off. I’m going to call him soon though, so please (This is to Sarah) tell him that I’m going to be calling him ASAP. I hope that Sarah is there though, because I really want to see you… Badly.
Also! I went to work yesterday and answered the phones I don’t know when I’m going back but I’m hopefully going to be going back soon, whenever Grant gets her Keyboard and her Printer, then I will probably be working on a daily basis, and the hours aren’t bad, they close at 6, and I’d be home at 630, hell that’s the perfect job.
I feel bad though because last night I promised Juan that I’d call him back cos he wanted to go take a shower, but I passed out, and when my mom got back from the gym, instead of waking me up, she turned off my light and I slept until 3 am until I realized how long I had been sleeping, and I was angry. Now I’m going to have to apologize to Juan when I do talk to him tonight. But on Sunday when I talked to him, I was a bitch, and I told him that he would regret being with Annie, and that he’ll realize his mistake soon enough. And he WILL, honestly, if he thinks that it’s going to be all happy, happy then there’s something wrong with him. If you yourself will say that your girlfriend is a hoe before you two were together, she’s not going to change. She cheated on him numerous times before, but maybe because he’s not a virgin anymore, and giving it to her, then she won’t choose to hurt him. But I still have a feeling that that bitch will put him in a world of pain. And I’m sorry for him. It was so funny how I said “I wish I was a whore” and we just kept talking about it, and I said “well, you’re dating one.” Haha, if that’s what he wants, a whore, he can have his whore. I was never his whore. He was trying to flip the script and said because I’ve dated more people, that I’m the whore, and that I had sex with Orre so often, that it made me a whore, too. I’m not the one sleeping with an ex of mine that used to cheat on me with my homeboys all of the time, she’s a homiehopper, and he’ll figure that all out, in due time. I hope they stay together for a long time, and when it all comes down to push and shove, that he’ll find out how long she’s been cheating on him, and he’ll break apart. And then the perfect thing would be for me to come back into his life, looking 50x better than Annie ever has, and he’ll want me back, but I’ll have a big ass rock on my finger, and then I’ll be like “HA too late mothafucka!” … Okay, big dream, if anything, I doubt I’ll be engaged. But I’m hoping to be with somebody, hopefully that would be Carlos. He’d be so angry, and he’d hate himself inside. And you know what? He deserves that.
I’m waiting on my letter from Carlos, and I can’t wait to talk to him. I find myself thinking about him a lot, wondering about future, and having my head in the clouds. I can’t concentrate for hours after I start thinking about him, and I think about him all of the time. It’s crazy. I told William about it and he wasn’t so excited about it, as I was. He says that anyone can say anything in a letter, but a person can’t have so much in common with you and just be making it up when he didn’t know a thing about me. how would he know that I was reading Odd Thomas, how would he know that I’m crazy about animals? It just doesn’t make any sense why no one can be happy for me for ONCE. I’m happy about him and Nathan and all he talks about is Nathan, and when I tell him about someone that I feel that I could care about, he says that I’m retarded. I just can’t win. He doesn’t understand the hurt he puts me through every time I try to lean on him for emotional support. *sigh* I just want William to for once like my boyfriends, or someone that I have feelings for, for once. It’s like if I have a fit or don’t like the person he’s with I’m a “bitch” and I’m “jealous” but he has NEVER NOT NEVER ONCE liked one of my exes. The only one that he could stand for a little while would have been Juan, but he’s on the same level as I am with Juan.
Maybe he’ll learn to like Carlos. If not, I give up on trying to please him. He’s not trying to please me with being with Nathan, so why please him, right?
I need to get my hair did, and I’m hoping I’ll get it don’t tonight, and if not tonight, tomorrow night. I’m praying. I’ve lost a good 10 to 15 pounds, and I want to look cute when I’m in Denton. I called Orre but as usual, he wasn’t there. I’m thinking of popping up over there, and busting his ass in the act of fucking with another female. So I can finally be over that mothafucka. I’m tired of it, I haven’t talked to him YET since I left Denton, and I’ve paged him, his cell is always off, and then it’s disconnected, and his ass ain’t ever home. He’s going to say “Well your phone isn’t on” FUCK YOU BITCH I call you you better fucking get home and wait for my goddamn it call. It’s not free to call someone to see if they are home or not, damn it, and I’m sick of it!
Well that’s all for the day, good day and good bye.