woo valentines day who gives a fuck

I'm going to start posting again because well... I'm depressed again. earlier, i laid awake for hours earlier in the dark of my room pondering ways that i could legitimately kill myself. ways that i could end this "perceived" suffering without my family being too upset, without my friends being affected. i came up with a few ideas, but i ( Read more... )

well life's been interesting lately. a lot of good things came into my life, one of which was a girl. but i can't actually be with her even though we like each other, and it sucks.

let's see...i've gotten over a lot of people lately, quite a few burdens lifted off of my shoulders.

that's it!

i don't know what to write, but i feel bad about a lot of things. and i feel like a failure.

When there is nothing left to burn ( Read more... )

this has been the hardest thing i've ever done. forgetting the person i thought i'd be with forever. when shes still within reach. i can try to communicate with her still... its crazy! so many things remind me of her. i cant get her out of my head. i've spent the last couple weeks distracting myself from the thought of amanda. will has been ( Read more... )

I wish I was free of this ( Read more... )

so i think it's time i started putting down my feelings again. i've been losing track of how i really feel lately. i think its because i've been around so many fake people my whole life, i've become fake myself to get by ( Read more... )

And nothing's ever as it seems
When all your dreams exist in memories

tonight my grandmother died. it hasn't fully hit me yet, because i happened to be drunk when i got the news. she was such a beautiful part of my life, someone who always brightened my life up no matter what. i can't find words to express the magnitude of this loss. she was so important to me. i loved her with all of my heart ( Read more... )