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stress levels tend to be high.
auditions went well. I got Trevor Graydon. Not the role I wanted, but I was able to get over it before the cast sheet was posted.
people need to get out of high school or at least act like civilized adults. I don't understand why sadies is such an overly blown out of proportioned deal to certain people. I mean for me personally, a girl isn't going to find much with me. I mean I am gay. So I don't think people should be upset if I say yes to someone else. Ecspecially, when they wait until the last day tickets are being sold even if they said they were planning on asking you. I also think that people not involved in the matter should not voice their opinions in a manner that is highly inappropriate. Can we all just grow up? I mean I know I have a lot of growing to do, I really do, but I admit my fallability (quite often, too often) I am going to make mistakes, but I am trying to deal with things as civilized as I can.
boys are retarded. I wish that I could stopping a certain boy but I can't so I am managing. I just feel like shit. I dated a very nice boy for 3 days only because the boy I liked crushed me yet again. this was of course like 2 weekends ago. The boy I dated is in love with me. I wish people would pick out my flaws first and point those out just as much as they compliment. One day someone's compliment will stick and I will feel good about myself for a day or two. Until that day I have to deal with all these misguided homosexual boys who think I am the greatest thing in the world, because I am not. what so ever. I am very flawed.
but I always have many good things about me.
I know this is going to sound vain and like I am full of myself, but bear with me, I need to list good things about myself because right now I feel (and for the past month) I have felt worthless, insignificant, like a total failure, and completely and terribly flawed.
I am phyiscally attractive. (I have nice eyes, hair, nose, and smile)
I care for others. (I check up on people, and when I know something is wrong I will want to help)
I am funny. ( people are always laughing)
I have good pemanship and actually write in cursive.
I have a good understanding of people. (not all people, but I know how to cheer them up and to figure them out)
I am a good singer and actor. (otherwise I wouldn't get good roles in shows, or that $1000 scholarship from EMU)
I have good friends. (the real ones. I do have fake ones, but the real ones save me)
I am creative. (who else would turn Luck Be a Lady Tonight into Reconstruct Me a Country Tonight for an AP US History project on the Reconstruction?)
I am flexible. (you should know by now =P)
I actually care about the world.
I am smart when it comes to theatre.
I can be a hardworker. (as of lately lack of motivation is causing my downfall)
I am outgoing, friendly, opinionated, a fighter, a mentor, a friend, a brother, a son-you-never-had, a drama IV/tech III, a teacher, a listener, a talker, a searcher, and an open minded individual.
ok. I thinnk this is good for now. sorry for appearing to be full of myself. I just needed to figure out what I liked about myself.
my friend Collin really put it in perspective for me tonight.
last of one: then it like came to me, it isnt anything that makes you happy, it isnt the big things in life... it's not that drastic change... it's the little things.
last of one: the dancing in your basement by yourself, it's the singing your heart out to a song you love.
last of one: i guess it's living, even with all the pain.
hopefully my parents will let me spend the night at his house tomorrow. I need so time with good friends.
auditions went well. I got Trevor Graydon. Not the role I wanted, but I was able to get over it before the cast sheet was posted.
people need to get out of high school or at least act like civilized adults. I don't understand why sadies is such an overly blown out of proportioned deal to certain people. I mean for me personally, a girl isn't going to find much with me. I mean I am gay. So I don't think people should be upset if I say yes to someone else. Ecspecially, when they wait until the last day tickets are being sold even if they said they were planning on asking you. I also think that people not involved in the matter should not voice their opinions in a manner that is highly inappropriate. Can we all just grow up? I mean I know I have a lot of growing to do, I really do, but I admit my fallability (quite often, too often) I am going to make mistakes, but I am trying to deal with things as civilized as I can.
boys are retarded. I wish that I could stopping a certain boy but I can't so I am managing. I just feel like shit. I dated a very nice boy for 3 days only because the boy I liked crushed me yet again. this was of course like 2 weekends ago. The boy I dated is in love with me. I wish people would pick out my flaws first and point those out just as much as they compliment. One day someone's compliment will stick and I will feel good about myself for a day or two. Until that day I have to deal with all these misguided homosexual boys who think I am the greatest thing in the world, because I am not. what so ever. I am very flawed.
but I always have many good things about me.
I know this is going to sound vain and like I am full of myself, but bear with me, I need to list good things about myself because right now I feel (and for the past month) I have felt worthless, insignificant, like a total failure, and completely and terribly flawed.
I am phyiscally attractive. (I have nice eyes, hair, nose, and smile)
I care for others. (I check up on people, and when I know something is wrong I will want to help)
I am funny. ( people are always laughing)
I have good pemanship and actually write in cursive.
I have a good understanding of people. (not all people, but I know how to cheer them up and to figure them out)
I am a good singer and actor. (otherwise I wouldn't get good roles in shows, or that $1000 scholarship from EMU)
I have good friends. (the real ones. I do have fake ones, but the real ones save me)
I am creative. (who else would turn Luck Be a Lady Tonight into Reconstruct Me a Country Tonight for an AP US History project on the Reconstruction?)
I am flexible. (you should know by now =P)
I actually care about the world.
I am smart when it comes to theatre.
I can be a hardworker. (as of lately lack of motivation is causing my downfall)
I am outgoing, friendly, opinionated, a fighter, a mentor, a friend, a brother, a son-you-never-had, a drama IV/tech III, a teacher, a listener, a talker, a searcher, and an open minded individual.
ok. I thinnk this is good for now. sorry for appearing to be full of myself. I just needed to figure out what I liked about myself.
my friend Collin really put it in perspective for me tonight.
last of one: then it like came to me, it isnt anything that makes you happy, it isnt the big things in life... it's not that drastic change... it's the little things.
last of one: the dancing in your basement by yourself, it's the singing your heart out to a song you love.
last of one: i guess it's living, even with all the pain.
hopefully my parents will let me spend the night at his house tomorrow. I need so time with good friends.