Stress....
So... I'm just totally stressed out. I want love... affection... dick.... I hate this shit... it reminds me AND feels like being with fuckin Adam... it's horse shit... I'm stressed out all the time. I want my husband... but I fear that.. I'll never again have the man that I fell in love with. I'm still very deeply in love with him. I have no stress relief. I get no sex.. no comfort... and no pain. I drank four of my beers and didn't start to feel anything until now... stressed out so much that I have to drink four beers to get buzzed up... heh... anyways... I'ma go touch it... and maybe... JUST MAYBE... I'll have the chance to go to sleep...