The Saddest Yom Kippur
At sundown tonight begins the traditional 25-hour fasting of Yom Kippur. One spends the time in prayer and meditation. What will be on MY mind?
Today is also my dad's birthday. My dad would have been 60 today -- and it's not fair that he didn't get the chance to even LIVE until 60. Yesterday a cousin of mine who I lost contact with had called me, managing to get a hold of my mother somehow and getting my number. She apparently just found out about my dad yesterday, and this in turn led me to talking to my sister about our cousin possibly visiting us, and my sister and I ... we still feel like we made the wrong decision, back in January, to take him off life support after the cancer spread to both his lungs. There will always be that "what if" that lingers, and it's reminders like Dad's birthday that bring that "what if" up again, and that pain comes back.
Today is also my dad's birthday. My dad would have been 60 today -- and it's not fair that he didn't get the chance to even LIVE until 60. Yesterday a cousin of mine who I lost contact with had called me, managing to get a hold of my mother somehow and getting my number. She apparently just found out about my dad yesterday, and this in turn led me to talking to my sister about our cousin possibly visiting us, and my sister and I ... we still feel like we made the wrong decision, back in January, to take him off life support after the cancer spread to both his lungs. There will always be that "what if" that lingers, and it's reminders like Dad's birthday that bring that "what if" up again, and that pain comes back.