a solemn day.
so this will be my last lj. i figure morning after graduating would be a great culmination of the three-ish years of the livejournal. plus im going to college and i need to grow up.
so this is it. its over. it feels incredibly surreal. im just waiting for monday and having to hit the snooze button on my alarm clock 6 times before i get out of bed. and the exact planned time to leave my house, still leaving 4 minutes early to get through the chik-fil-a line. and texting ev and kel in class about where were going to lunch after school. and coming up with a new plan to get out of class early. and getting insanly mad at how slow some people walk in the hallways. and me and ev giving each other our look across the room and knowing exactly what the other person is thinking. and analyzing everyone in the hallways. and getting pissed off because we actually have to do something in design class. and trying so hard to get involved and then NEVER getting called to do anything. and when we actually did have to do stuff, finding a way out of it. and meetings we made ourselves go to. and work we made ourselves do. but mostly just the average day, where you knew exactly what to expect and exactly who you would see depending on which route you took to classes. just seeing the same people you've known for so long every day. we'll never have that again. so that's what really feels so weird i guess. the uncertainity of everything else. plus how ridiculously much im going to miss everyone next year. im seriously so lucky i have ev, kel, and kris going with me to college. i think i would loose my mind if i had to leave ev.
i assume i'll just end it with: "man im awesome" and "i love my life"
so this is it. its over. it feels incredibly surreal. im just waiting for monday and having to hit the snooze button on my alarm clock 6 times before i get out of bed. and the exact planned time to leave my house, still leaving 4 minutes early to get through the chik-fil-a line. and texting ev and kel in class about where were going to lunch after school. and coming up with a new plan to get out of class early. and getting insanly mad at how slow some people walk in the hallways. and me and ev giving each other our look across the room and knowing exactly what the other person is thinking. and analyzing everyone in the hallways. and getting pissed off because we actually have to do something in design class. and trying so hard to get involved and then NEVER getting called to do anything. and when we actually did have to do stuff, finding a way out of it. and meetings we made ourselves go to. and work we made ourselves do. but mostly just the average day, where you knew exactly what to expect and exactly who you would see depending on which route you took to classes. just seeing the same people you've known for so long every day. we'll never have that again. so that's what really feels so weird i guess. the uncertainity of everything else. plus how ridiculously much im going to miss everyone next year. im seriously so lucky i have ev, kel, and kris going with me to college. i think i would loose my mind if i had to leave ev.
i assume i'll just end it with: "man im awesome" and "i love my life"