Hello, Again, Hello

[a_bleeding_rose]

It has been two and a half years since I last posted an update on LiveJournal. I'm, frankly, surprised my journal is still here, but I'm glad. I just read the last post I made - I remember what it was like to feel that depression. But my life has changed so much now. I have grown so much since then, matured, become an adult. I used to think I was an adult, back then, but really I wasn't. I was still a kid, at best a young adult, thinking I knew everything, thinking I had faced all there was to face and that there really wasn't much to this life. How wrong. How very, very wrong I was. I have become a better person in the past couple years. I have been loved by, and do love, a wonderful man, who has helped me grow and become a better person. I am conquering my depression. I have reached a point now that I didn't believe was still attainable for me. I know what it is to be happy again. I know what it is to be loved and treated with respect and understanding and caring. I am still not "over" my depression - does one ever get "over" it? - but I am managing it and I am no longer letting it control my life.
I have not cut in over two years. I have, hopefully, put that behind me forever.
I am still in love with my job.
I have lost the friends that I needed to lose, and I have found friends I don't deserve, one being the man I love.
I can no longer respect as I once did someone very dear to me. While I still love them, they have shown me that they cannot grow up, be responsible, or act anything other than immature and petty. This is hard for me to reconcile, but, as I said, I still love them, just not in the same way as I once did, and they no longer have the control over me that I once let them have. I have made a vow this year that I will no longer let anyone stand in the way of my happiness. If that means I travel on while they remain stationary then so be it.
That's all for now. Hopefully, I will begin writing here again. This has made me feel better.