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[a_bit_of_stuff]

day:
woke up too late to go to work [per usual]..
bummed around..
went to therapy..
killed an hour before class doing god knows what..
went to class [got an A on my five page paper that took me 45 minutes to write]..

night:
coffee fix..
stopped at home for a while..
met chris, april and danielle at charlie's..
went to nellie's with chris and was offered to have a threesome..
refused..
heard funny pee stories..
came home..

i'm not smiling behind this fake veneer
i am often interrupted or completely ignored
but most of all i'm bored..

i'm trying to find out if my words have any meaning
lackluster and full of contempt when it always ends the same
why won't you listen to me?

why did i come?
oh why did i come here?
these humans all suck
i'd rather be home feeling violent and lonely
i'm not trying to sound so insincere
but the postcard that's taped to the freezer reads "wish you were here"
how i wish i could disappear

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