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[a1ka1ine_v0lc0m]

today was a horrible day kathy was screaming at me all day.... mom came home in a pissy mood and besides taht sean and i are still at it...i want to work this out but it's like he wont take respinsibility for what he's done wrong ... i know that i shouldn't have ever told him that when i was ready to date i would date him and leave him waiting like

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It's me again

[anonymous]

Look i'm sorry for what happened between you and your mom i never meant for that to happen..but your last journal told me what i always wanted to know you want to date him......I'm sorry for blowing up on you but one thing you don't realize...i care to much about you not to be with you(meaning dateing) when you want another guy...i can't put my self tho that....i would end up a empty shell. i know you mostliky never had the feeling you had for me.....and you asked me a WEEK ago if i thought you where leading me on i would have said no...but after all this you started likeing a guy you asked me to take you to see.. you have any idea how bad that hurts....you say you never asked me to wait for you...You never said "Sean Please wait for me" but you actions spoke much later then any words ever could....I'm happy you found a guy that can hopfully open your heart to love again....i still whise it was me but forget that...i hope after reading you you know why i can see or talk to you besides at work or if we meet by chance some where... You

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[anonymous]

I don't proof read my last reply but i think you'll understand.

what i'm trying to say

[anonymous]

It's 2 in the morning and i'm talking to clayton and i realized you have no one to talk to. I really do want to go back to being bestfreinds but i can't allow my self do that..i want to be there and talk things out with you but if i do it will just cause more pain. for me and you in the end when or if you date ryan i would lose it all over again...so just ask your self do you really want to go tho this again..