you think noone cares?????? think again!!!! i care. i have always cared. and i will always care. so next time you think noone cares, just know that you are wrong.
what was that supose to mean?????????? "how am i supposed to know you care?" do you think i dont? you call me just as much as i call you. most of the time its me calling you first. "then again... we talk just as much as we used to, eh? maybe it's not a bad thing..." and what might i ask did you mean by that one?????? you wanna know why i dont call, cause everytime i call i get the feeling that you just dont really care, like you are just humoring me. you are off in your one little world it seems. i wonder sometimes if you are the one that doesnt care. we use to talk alot untill i got really sick and alomost died twice. then we didnt talk anymore. why i dont really know. i guess i have felt like since you are soo into your girl that you aint got time for me anymore. and sometimes i feel like... i am ... i dont know, too much for you. you know like i irritate you alot. maybe i am too ignorant for you. you make me feel really small sometimes. and when it comes to the whole love thing you make it sound like you are the only one that
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"how am i supposed to know you care?" means we don't talk. and ever since you've been talking to lauren (not that i mind, cuz i love that you've found somebody good for you) it's like you're a whole new person and the only reason you hung around me is cuz you wanted something. that's what it seems like. but it doesn't really matter if thatz what it was
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well, i dont know where to start. you say you dont call me cause you aint got nothin to say, maybe thats why i dont call you, maybe i just dont know what to say. i know you dont mean to make me feel like shit. and i dont mean to make you feel like shit, which i feel like i do alot. i'm sorry for that. ummm, about me being around you just cause i wanted something... that is NOT true at all. i'm sorry i made you feel that way, but it aint like that. i stopped being around you and talking to you cause you are caught up with your girl( which is understandable) and i felt like i was nothing to you anymore. i have spent my whole life dealing with my friends, totaly pushing me out of their life cause they are with someone now. so guess i assumed that thats what you where gonna do or was doing. its like np wthat you have a girl you dont need me anymore. i know you dont need me in that way, i am fine with that. but i guess i felt like you didnt need me in anyway. she was everything you needed. look.... i am sorry things have turned out this
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of course i'm caught up in 'my girl'. so are you. but itz not a bad thing. i simply am in love, that doesn't mean i've lost the capacity to love more than one person! lol. i can be a friend better, actually, because i'm happier than i would be normally
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Re: magical...jamellaleeSeptember 20 2005, 14:38:01 UTC
well, i have talked to you on the phone, i thought i would feel funny but i didnt. i felt like shit for not calling you and being an ass, but other then that i was good. it was really good to hear your voice. i am glad i swallowed my stubern pride and called you. one thing hasnt changed( which i dont want it to) when i hear your voice, all my pain just.... i dont know ,it just isnt so bad anymore. you havent lost your touch. thats good. i miss that... i guess its my own fault that i lost it. well i didnt really lose it... you know what i mean.lol( you know me, can never find the right words) thats hasnt changed. i am starting to feel alot better about things with me and you. i dont feel so... up tight and... angry i guess. i still kick myself for what i did to you though.* shakes head* i am really ashamed of myself for that. i dont think i will beable to forgive myself for that one. i never ment to hurt you. i'm sorry. anyway,.... hows things going for you? i think i will call you today when you get home from school. hope all is well
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then again... we talk just as much as we used to, eh? maybe it's not a bad thing...
xo
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heeh. we're growing up more, go us!
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