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Have you ever felt like you don't know yourself?
That you're viewing your entire life from a bubble outside of it, and you have no control, no thoughts to it, just that you don't like how it's going at the moment but aren't quite sure why, or what to do about it etc?
That's how I'm feeling at the moment...
I just don't know what I want anymore...things are so unclear to me at the moment and I hate it, I think my worst pet hate is not being in control of myself...I can't bear not knowing where I stand, especially when it's because of me...with others I can get angry and complain, with myself I have nothing to say to anyone, or anything to think, I just get confused and feel incomplete...and I can't complain for I know not what to complain about...
Alot has happened within my head lately, and all that I thought I knew is still there but it's behind a smoke screen...and infront of the smoke screen are new thoughts and ideas that people are hiding from me so that I have to guess...(metaphorically, there isn't really people in my head)
I don't know why I'm writing this, as I don't even know what to write...
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That you're viewing your entire life from a bubble outside of it, and you have no control, no thoughts to it, just that you don't like how it's going at the moment but aren't quite sure why, or what to do about it etc?
That's how I'm feeling at the moment...
I just don't know what I want anymore...things are so unclear to me at the moment and I hate it, I think my worst pet hate is not being in control of myself...I can't bear not knowing where I stand, especially when it's because of me...with others I can get angry and complain, with myself I have nothing to say to anyone, or anything to think, I just get confused and feel incomplete...and I can't complain for I know not what to complain about...
Alot has happened within my head lately, and all that I thought I knew is still there but it's behind a smoke screen...and infront of the smoke screen are new thoughts and ideas that people are hiding from me so that I have to guess...(metaphorically, there isn't really people in my head)
I don't know why I'm writing this, as I don't even know what to write...
Blah