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Eurgh!
For crying out loud, I'm a big gay!
Ryan asked me to go out, just me and him, clubbing to Wolverhampton, on thursday, to which i agreed I'd see him but didn't know about the clubs.
So I got an outfit today and was all thinking 'Woo'...as you do...and I've just called him to arrange it all etc, and he's about to get stoned basically, and he's taken shifts at work for tomorrow, THURSDAY, and friday...because he didn't think I wanted to go...
How twatmunch is that!?
Why have I fell for such a loser? Even in the event of our break up he won't care and he'll just think he's god's gift.
I guarantee he did something to make Jak etc think he was acting like the don etc on holiday, he thinks he's so great at times, and he's not...
I just want the guy I first fell for back, the one who made me tingle inside, the one I was willing to lose a best mate for etc, whom I couldn't bear not to think of...
Maybe he isn't that guy anymore, and maybe I don't need him anymore...but he's a nice memory...if he is the same guy he's going to have to prove it, because being on a break has made me think, and I wasn't happy with the relationship, I don't like being taken for granted, and I hate it even more when I tell the person and it causes an argument because they think they can do no wrong! He's always thought I'm just being a bitch and thought I was trying to get him under the thumb etc, but you know what, I expect a certain amount of respect if I'm with someone for a year and a half, and I just don't get that from him because he feels tied down to me etc...if he's feeling tied down, he can't commit to me, and I'm not asking for a fucking marriage, but we're in a long term relationship, so I expect more than if we were together for a week...
Ryan, do you even care for me at all? I mean for fuck's sake! Deal with stuff for once in your life instead of avoiding!
Sometimes I really hate you!
For crying out loud, I'm a big gay!
Ryan asked me to go out, just me and him, clubbing to Wolverhampton, on thursday, to which i agreed I'd see him but didn't know about the clubs.
So I got an outfit today and was all thinking 'Woo'...as you do...and I've just called him to arrange it all etc, and he's about to get stoned basically, and he's taken shifts at work for tomorrow, THURSDAY, and friday...because he didn't think I wanted to go...
How twatmunch is that!?
Why have I fell for such a loser? Even in the event of our break up he won't care and he'll just think he's god's gift.
I guarantee he did something to make Jak etc think he was acting like the don etc on holiday, he thinks he's so great at times, and he's not...
I just want the guy I first fell for back, the one who made me tingle inside, the one I was willing to lose a best mate for etc, whom I couldn't bear not to think of...
Maybe he isn't that guy anymore, and maybe I don't need him anymore...but he's a nice memory...if he is the same guy he's going to have to prove it, because being on a break has made me think, and I wasn't happy with the relationship, I don't like being taken for granted, and I hate it even more when I tell the person and it causes an argument because they think they can do no wrong! He's always thought I'm just being a bitch and thought I was trying to get him under the thumb etc, but you know what, I expect a certain amount of respect if I'm with someone for a year and a half, and I just don't get that from him because he feels tied down to me etc...if he's feeling tied down, he can't commit to me, and I'm not asking for a fucking marriage, but we're in a long term relationship, so I expect more than if we were together for a week...
Ryan, do you even care for me at all? I mean for fuck's sake! Deal with stuff for once in your life instead of avoiding!
Sometimes I really hate you!