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Ok....I'm very upset right now. I have insurance...good insurance for once...and I finally make the effort to call around to therepists. Which took a lot because I'm still scared to face everything that I've ignored/blocked. In a nut shell, I find out that my account has a pre-existing hold. Which means, since the sexual assult happened prior to me being insured with this company they won't cover the therepy.(untill feb/07) I can't freaking afford therepy without the insurance! Goodness. I'm trying to make an effort to change to find a more positive light in my life and this is what I get. Great. I'm very upset and angered by this. Just cause it's prior doesn't mean it's not still effecting me! It doesn't mean that I'm not just as needy as someone who has had it happend during the time of being insured! *shakes head* this really sucks.....
When I got off the phone I just started to cry. Hiding it though cause I'm at work right now. I'm not just pissed. I'm sad. I feel almost hopeless. I felt like I had a way out....and it was crushed right before my eyes just as I reached for it. *sighs*
I am on a list with C4, a local oganization, for therepy but it is a list. And an opening may not happen for a couple of months. Will I even find a therepist who's method I like? What if I don't like the only avalible therepist? Do I have to wait longer? Now, I feel like, What the hell do I do now.....
I don't want to do this on my own. I don't want to stare at a book and nod in understanding alone. I want help. I can't face this alone.
Well....if anyone is in chicago and has some good resources I would greatly appreciate it.
I'm looking for someone who does more than just talk therepy. I'm very much into new age and alternative treatments. Oh....and a female is a must.
Besides that I've never looked for a therepist before. Any tips/suggestions? I have a short list of questions already.
Thanks for listening......
I'm gonna find something to do besides eating to stop the tears.....
When I got off the phone I just started to cry. Hiding it though cause I'm at work right now. I'm not just pissed. I'm sad. I feel almost hopeless. I felt like I had a way out....and it was crushed right before my eyes just as I reached for it. *sighs*
I am on a list with C4, a local oganization, for therepy but it is a list. And an opening may not happen for a couple of months. Will I even find a therepist who's method I like? What if I don't like the only avalible therepist? Do I have to wait longer? Now, I feel like, What the hell do I do now.....
I don't want to do this on my own. I don't want to stare at a book and nod in understanding alone. I want help. I can't face this alone.
Well....if anyone is in chicago and has some good resources I would greatly appreciate it.
I'm looking for someone who does more than just talk therepy. I'm very much into new age and alternative treatments. Oh....and a female is a must.
Besides that I've never looked for a therepist before. Any tips/suggestions? I have a short list of questions already.
Thanks for listening......
I'm gonna find something to do besides eating to stop the tears.....