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what the hell is wrong with me? why are the littlest things making me go crazy. I mean I am screaming and crying and I have all this anger in me and I dont know what to do with it.
yesturday I went beserk when my brother took the car which isn't a big deal but I went fucking crazy I was swearing and screaming hitting my sister calling her a whore. She kept yellling get this girl in a mental institution.
and today he took th car again and I just blew up I dont know why but I just feel like hurting myself but I wont cut because it takes up waay tmuch of a mess and I dont like wearing long sleeves not in the weather I dont know what to do I feel so fucking shitty. My dad made lasagna for dinner and I hate lasagna and I just started crying what is wrong with me why cant i just be calm like a normal person.
I have no pills they wont give me my pills my mom wont fill them up and she wont give them to me I want my pills i think taht is why I go beserk over the smallest things but I dont want to I want to feel happy I want to be normal.
why the hell cant i be normal!?
I can't scream I try and I cant my body wont let me I just dig my nails in my hands the computer was being slow and I threw the key board on the ground i threw my cell out the window and stomped on it why am i going fucking insane?
is this normal?