day one. fairly good. :D
changed my journal. its okay, if you want to fix it, tell me and i'll give you my password.
today i was good, surprisingly. i kept waking up last night, dont know why, but i did sleep. i got up this morning and moped because honestly, i did not want to face the world today. my smiles were extremely fake.
i did really good. i just tried to really get into it, because then i wouldnt think about it. and i didnt.
Tracy, dont be sorry for mentioning it, i'm okay.
I'm ready to be the Stacy that everyone knew and loved, the flirty girl that didnt have to impress anybody. Becuase you know what? i dont. i dont have to impress ANYONE. hah.
My mother FINALLY got pictures developed from like, october. they had homecoming pictures that made me cry again, but thats okay. she took some really good portraits that i'm actually proud of. ask if you want one, i may scan it for ya.
I did alot of thinking today, obviously. I realized that some goofy sixth grade sayings are unbelieveably true. so, i'll depart with these simple phrases of wisdom:
"no guy is ever worth your tears, and the only one that is, won't make you cry"
"the only guy that deserves you is the one that doesnt think it"
"what doesnt kill you, only makes you stronger"
and now my song of departure. its a lovely song.
Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreamin' of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray
Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I'd pray
I could breakaway
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes 'til I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get on board a fast train
Travel on a jet plane
Far away,
And breakaway
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes 'til I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
I won't forget all the ones that I love
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging 'round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me, but
Gotta keep movin' on, movin' on
Fly away
Breakaway
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
Gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Breakaway
Breakaway