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so, news of the day.
stacy's single.
it was mutual. it was dead. i'm still crying and i cant sleep.
its really for the best, and i know it. why? because i've been suffering ever since we had talked about it. college. summer. its just, hit me. i dont know why they call it heartbreak. it feels like world break, like ... indescribeable. i dont know why they call it heartbreak, because it feels like i'm choking on the air, and everytime i breathe in, my throat closes a little bit more. every once in a while, i'll stop crying, and think that saying "dont cry because its over, smile because i happened." and i do. i smile. it was amazing. i've learned so much.
i crawled into my mom's bed, because i cant do this by myself. she doesnt know what i'm going through, she told me. she just hugged me and told me she loved me, and that every thing will be ok, i just need to look to the future. i have so many more responsibilities now, as a junior, and i have one less burden, even though the burden wasnt realy a burden at all, just anotherpiece of my life.
where do i go from here? i dont know, i'm not a fortune teller. i dont want a boyfriend, because i dont want a rebound. from listening to friends previously, being the rebound hurts, and i dont want to hurt anybody. so i'll do what i do best. i'll run. i will run until someone chases me again, until someone goes through crap, until someone realizes that im' not just a girl, i'm acutally THE girl, the one they all call stacy lynn. the special one.
the most important thing: i have great friends, and we're friends, we're not mad at eachother becuas eno one did anything wrong, and you know what? i'll be okay.
any guy would be lucky to have me.
i've been listening to two songs lately, they're both just piano, no lyrics, but based on songs with lyrics. one: "i'll just have to say i love you in a song" and the other: "so far away". here's one.
So far away;
Doesn't anybody stay in one place anymore?
It would be so fine to see your face at my door;
Doesn't help to know you're just time away;
Long ago I reached for you and there you stood;
Holding you again could only do me good;
How I wish I could, but you're so far away
One more song about movin' along the highway;
Can't say much of anything that's new;
If I could only work this life out my way;
I'd rather spend it bein' close to you;
But you're so far away, doesn't anybody stay in one place anymore?
It would be so fine to see your face at my door;
Doesn't help to know you're so far away
Yay-uh-ay-eee; Oh, so far away
Travelin' around sure gets me down and lonely;
Nothin' else to do but close my mind;
I sure hope the road don't come to own me;
Yet so many dreams I've yet to find;
But you're so far away, doesn't anybody stay in one place anymore?
It would be so fine to see your face at my door;
And it doesn't help to know you're so far away