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It is entirely too early to be awake, bah to not being asleep. I had to take Mike to work at 7 this morning so I've been up since the ass crack of dawn. I figured since I was up early for once I'd do something productive, so I walked my half-asleep ass down to the laundry room and started on our mountain of laundry. I have to work at 11 but I need to stop by the bank and get gas so I'm trying to get out of here by 10.
It's wierd doing Mike's laundry, I feel like we're playing house or something. We both agreed when he first moved in that we weren't going to be all domestic and do this spouse-like shit, but certain things are just unavoidable. I don't want anything to change, I don't want to stay together just because we live together. I can't help but wonder how this is going to end up. We both still have alot of living to do that we want to do on our own; single, unattached. But how and when does that happen now that we live together?? Don't get me wrong, I'm still very happy with him, but there are no forever discussions here and it's kind of hard to break away from someone you share a bed and everything else with. Relationships are hard.
I drive down my old street everyday on my way to work just for the hell of it, and also because I'm kind of homeick. The driveway is always empty but on Sunday my Mom's car was there for once, so I called her since I knew she was home and it turns out we both have tomorrow off. We're going to go out to eat and she's going to come see the apartment. We get along okay now but most of it's fake since we've never rally discussed all the shit that went down when I left. She's pretty much all I have in the world outside my friends and John, so I don't really want to fight with her anymore but sooner or later this happy little relationship we have now might blow up in my face considering how much has just been left unsaid. I dunno, right now it's just nice not to hate her like I always did when I lived at home.
I think I'm going to straighten my hair while I wait for the laundry. Good days to all...
Stacey
It's wierd doing Mike's laundry, I feel like we're playing house or something. We both agreed when he first moved in that we weren't going to be all domestic and do this spouse-like shit, but certain things are just unavoidable. I don't want anything to change, I don't want to stay together just because we live together. I can't help but wonder how this is going to end up. We both still have alot of living to do that we want to do on our own; single, unattached. But how and when does that happen now that we live together?? Don't get me wrong, I'm still very happy with him, but there are no forever discussions here and it's kind of hard to break away from someone you share a bed and everything else with. Relationships are hard.
I drive down my old street everyday on my way to work just for the hell of it, and also because I'm kind of homeick. The driveway is always empty but on Sunday my Mom's car was there for once, so I called her since I knew she was home and it turns out we both have tomorrow off. We're going to go out to eat and she's going to come see the apartment. We get along okay now but most of it's fake since we've never rally discussed all the shit that went down when I left. She's pretty much all I have in the world outside my friends and John, so I don't really want to fight with her anymore but sooner or later this happy little relationship we have now might blow up in my face considering how much has just been left unsaid. I dunno, right now it's just nice not to hate her like I always did when I lived at home.
I think I'm going to straighten my hair while I wait for the laundry. Good days to all...
Stacey