I Can't Explain the State That I'm In
Yesterday Travis bought me the most beautiful ring i could have ever wanted. It could be the ugliest ring in the world and i would love it just the same b/c it wasn't the ring that i wanted but what it represents. It means that whenever i look down at it i think of him and know that we're going to be together for a long time to come. When i was laying in bed last night i thought to myself, this is what happiness feels like; this is what love feels like. I know this is going to sound very 50's but i like knowing that i "belong" to someone, that i found someone who i want to spend the majority of my time with. It's almost as if i feel grounded in some way. That no matter what happens i'll always have him there to catch me, or even more so, to be there for someone other then myself. It's a feeling of being needed by someone other then your family and by someone who could potentially turn into my new family. And yes it's to early in a relationship (and in my life) to think about taking the matrimonial plunge but if i was to plunge i'd want to get swallowed up by marriage with him. I'm sure i'll get a lot of criticism for this post, but i don't care. I don't want to walk on egg shells around this b/c when you feel this way you can't keep it in or else you'll go insane.
Oh, i move out in 27 days and i haven't told my dad or sister yet. Maybe i could just move out over night?
Oh, i move out in 27 days and i haven't told my dad or sister yet. Maybe i could just move out over night?