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I must admit that I am only making this entry in this page because I know that no body actually reads this page. While on the trip to Ely in Alamo Ryan and I made a choice that I know completely will change our lives. We decided that the next time I go to the doctor (which will be in a matter of weeks) we aren’t going to put me on birth control we are going to put me on fertility drugs and try to figure out why in the year and a half that we have been married I haven’t gotten pregnant yet. Hell I haven’t been on any form of birth control since the first week. It doesn’t help much that I didn’t get my period for six months and when I did take the pregnancy test and it failed and then laughed at me afterwards… it hurt deeply. After that I put a wall up and sternly said “I’m not worried about this till I am 25 and then I will get pregnant” while in Alamo Ryan turned to me and just said “we should have a baby. Why are we going to wait? There is never going to be a perfect time to have a baby. So I think once we get back we should get you to the doctor and get us a baby” so with the little steps have been taken with prayers and a doctors appointment hopefully I can announce in three months that a baby is on its way.