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I had a checkup at the hospital yesterday, and they said that my ribs and my head are doing just fine. Could have fooled me--I haven't slept a full night since I did that damned spell. Not that I could tell the doctor that. It seemed to take more out of me than I'm used to, and left me with all this strange, jittery energy that I don't know what to do with.
And then there's the nightmares...I keep seeing those eyes, and the lightning that missed me by inches. I wonder if I did get a little hit from it, maybe that's where the energy is coming from? Oddly, that boy from school keeps popping up in my dreams at odd times, too, only not talking to me like he did the night in the hospital. Between the two, I can barely stand to go to sleep, and I'm a nervous wreck all day. I've tried a couple of spells, dream pillows, charms, but nothing seems to work for long.
I don't even know for sure if the spell worked, because I can't bring myself to go over and see if Taffy's at home. I don't want to run into Stefan, especially not while I'm feeling like this. I'm a little surprised that neither he nor Jordan has come looking for me if it did work--I'd have thought they'd blame me instantly. Could they think she just went out of town? Could she have found out what happened while their memories were missing, gotten angry with them? A girl can hope, I guess.
One thing I have noticed--no more ghostly harassment. If the spell did work, it certainly seems to support my theory that Taffy was somehow behind that.
I have an interview in San Francisco on Friday. I'm not sure how I'm going to pull myself together for it, but I think I may stay over for the weekend. Maybe I can get a couple of decent nights of rest somewhere else.
And then there's the nightmares...I keep seeing those eyes, and the lightning that missed me by inches. I wonder if I did get a little hit from it, maybe that's where the energy is coming from? Oddly, that boy from school keeps popping up in my dreams at odd times, too, only not talking to me like he did the night in the hospital. Between the two, I can barely stand to go to sleep, and I'm a nervous wreck all day. I've tried a couple of spells, dream pillows, charms, but nothing seems to work for long.
I don't even know for sure if the spell worked, because I can't bring myself to go over and see if Taffy's at home. I don't want to run into Stefan, especially not while I'm feeling like this. I'm a little surprised that neither he nor Jordan has come looking for me if it did work--I'd have thought they'd blame me instantly. Could they think she just went out of town? Could she have found out what happened while their memories were missing, gotten angry with them? A girl can hope, I guess.
One thing I have noticed--no more ghostly harassment. If the spell did work, it certainly seems to support my theory that Taffy was somehow behind that.
I have an interview in San Francisco on Friday. I'm not sure how I'm going to pull myself together for it, but I think I may stay over for the weekend. Maybe I can get a couple of decent nights of rest somewhere else.